beta
She IS over her love and romantic feelings for Theodore (first life lover) but she has complex trauma around him and his betrayal and so she thinks her strong feelings must be love because to her love is hurt and sacrifice. She clearly loves therode (current duke) but doesn’t realize it. My head cannon is that Benjamin is Theodore’s reincarnation, and this will be revealed so Astina can realize she is over him, or even hates him and be with therode.