Elen's Things

Can anyone please recommend something very similar to the Manga Chou to Hana no Kankeisei (Yaoi).

So there's one that's recently uploaded, it was full colored, story is that the seme find put that someone assaulted his sister ( I think) and so he rapes him at the bathroom but the uke is just naive and ask him to live at his place because he's lazy and doesn't work. Seme's hair color was black and the uke I think white

There was a one where, going flashback, one of the mc tried to commit suicide because he had gone car accident and lost his family and the other Mc saves him, he was in the hospital at that time because he was looking after his grandmother and when she does he leaves the hospital and the Mcs separate but they Meg again in a club or something like that

There was a one where the uke works as a doctor but he was obligated to movr in a hospital in another city because he's not qualified enough, there he meet the seme who had some suspicious job.
It was short like some 8 chapters or so.

I want something where in the plot, the main character spend their whole life wanting to die, only to die after they find a reason to live. It doesn't matter whether it's straight, bl or gl.