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idk why everyone is acting like the seme is some golden greenflag angel. uke was honest about his desires, he was genuinely turned on by getting hit. seme is the one who lied and pretended he liked it, bc of his shitty nice-guy white-knight savior complex. and then he has the fuckin chutzpah to act like consensually engaging in bdsm (that he researched!!) makes him a piece of shit. it's okay that he feels resistance to hitting someone at first, author could've turned it into a sweet story about how he is conflicted about enjoying it so he has to work thru the cognitive dissonance... but instead we got slut-shaming and this weird psychological hostage situation.
seriously, fuck this seme and the horse he rode in on.