so basically for anyone confused in this story
• If you die at the time that god wants you to die then you’re free (coz everyone is born sinners and their lives on earth are a way of them to atone ig)
• If you die before you’re actually fated to die, god or anastasio the apostle of god sees it as a mistake and you’re allowed to repeat your life and have your memory of that life wiped, you’re also given one wish
• If you kill yourself, basically defying gods will, you’re forced to repeat your life but you have to keep all of your memories (which i can see being a punishment coz someone will only kill themself if their life is really bad and being forced to repeat that really bad life is a punishment in itself)