
It’s genuinely disappointing how quick some people are to dismiss a person’s past, especially when that past involves childhood trauma.
We’re talking about someone who, at the age of six, was physically abused by his father, neglected, starved, bullied, and abandoned by his mother. That’s not just a “tough upbringing”—that’s deep, life-altering trauma. And yet, some still respond with, “That doesn’t excuse how he acts.”
No one’s saying it does. But what’s concerning is the complete lack of empathy. The inability or refusal to even try to understand how a child who was never protected, never loved properly, might grow into an adult who struggles to express care in healthy ways.
Jaekyung is flawed, yes. But he's not evil. He’s someone who grew up surviving, not thriving. And when a person grows up believing the world is against them, it’s not surprising they grow defensive, even aggressive. That doesn’t make their behavior right, but it does make it understandable.
You don’t have to excuse him. You don’t even have to like him. But if you can’t find compassion for a child who was failed by everyone around him, that says more about your perspective than it does about his.
Empathy doesn’t mean approval. It means recognizing the humanity in people, especially for those like him who never had a chance.

The thing is that those who have experienced abusive relationships spend way too long trying to understand why the person is the way that they are, as if knowing will somehow change the situation or provide relief.
The sad truth is that yes although highly abusive individuals become abusive from their own trauma, it is still their choice to continue to act that way as an adult and not seek help.
For those experiencing the abuse, WHY their partners do those things is irrelevant. The only thing that matters is that their partner is not a safe person to be around.
In real human relationships lines indeed become crossed after which a person cannot be redeemed in the eyes of those who were harmed and I think that is why the comments section is the way it is. JJ crossed way too many lines and so the readers have lost empathy.
That being said, I do appreciate a solid realistic backstory. From JJ ‘S behavior earlier in the story, if he was a real person eh almost certainly would have been abused as a child in some way. It makes for a more well rounded story to fill in the gaps although I think I liked it better the way Koogi did it in ks. It’s much darker and probably the most psychologically realistic portrayal I have read in BL.

I KNOW RIGHT?? ppl don’t understand how hard is for A 6 YEAR OLD CHILD to suffer from abuse from his father ( which hits different ) starvingg loneliness being abandoned AND bullied, also how tf do they expect someone who never in their life been cared for and treated nicely to treat other ppl? well no shit he’s gonna be aggressive and defensive,ppl don’t know how much childhood is effective in a persons life and how it builds their whole personality.
I’ve read your whole comment and really respect it you’re such a thoughtful person you’ve literally said all that’s in my head (▰˘◡˘▰)

It’s wild how some people really think reading something illegally for years somehow makes them part of an author’s fan club. Y’all will pirate a series from chapter one, never support it even once not a single purchase, not even a retweet of the official content, but then sit on the author's page every day like you’re besties.
And now someone actually posted a full illegal translation on Twitter like it was cute. Of course the author saw it. Of course she went off. She has every right to be angry, her work, her income, her livelihood is being stolen right in front of her by people claiming to “love” her. Love without respect is nothing.
Let’s be real: piracy isn’t going anywhere. We all know that. But the least you could do is not flaunt it in the author’s face, then pretend you’re some loyal fan. That’s not love. That’s entitlement dressed up as admiration. If you can’t support officially, at least don’t be dumb enough to harass or provoke the creators. Sit quietly in the corner you chose and stop acting like they owe you kindness.

i just want to propose that we share outlets for official merch without directly linking. direct link click throughs give tracking data that'll put sites like mgg more on the spot, and possibly lead to shutdown or the artists giving up. but things like linktree or manually typing sites won't show mgg & others.
basically, if we make it common place to say "support the artist/author at OfficialMerch dot corn" that might be a good way to support creators. maybe some people can't buy 200 chapters, but can afford a $10 official trinket, idk

btw if that sounds insane, yes, website owners can see if people are being directed through things like social media, search engine, etc, even your location! so they just have to check some stats on their admin dashboard and they'd see 200 referral clicks through mgg & that would be upsetting, even if everyone bought things every time!
I'm not planning on doing this forever; if someone else took over that's good, if the original uploader comes back that's even better. I just wanted to upload till the latest episode.
Thank you for posting the chapters !!
plss keep uploading plss im begging you
Thank you so much for uploading. I hope jujucat comes back or someone else takes over the series
Thank you so nuch for the uploads! We've been waiting for ages... :(