I read what I want to

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/dororo/ maybe if you haven't read it yet

You either learn to draw (learn, draw, gain an audience, commission for extra cash if you want and then you're good to go) or write it so like an artist can draw it.

team up with an artist, and you can be the author (but yea you gotta need money or know someone for that :/ )

same but I do want to write instead but it's a mess

Oohhh!!! Thank you for the suggestions