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Just realized I quite literally have no one in my life to talk to about this, so I guess I'm going to just put it here because I'm just going to feel shitter if I don't say anything.
This is also question for all the older siblings out there. Is it just my mom that treats me like this or is this a universal experience for all older siblings? Especially sisters.
So recently I've been wanting to take my hair down, it was a hairstyle I asked for but I'm tired of it now and I don't really like how it was done in the first place. But the thing is, I only mentioned taking it down one time, I already knew not to push it because I never really know what'll make my mom mad.
This morning, I went to the living room, just to say good morning. I was in a good mood and everything, never mentioned my hair. Then my mom starts playing with my hair, like styling it and stuff. And I gently said something barely even mentioning wanting to take it down.
And I guess I should've just shut my mouth because then my God mother (barely consider her that), starts going off on me. Asking me what I'll do after I take it down.
For some context, literally the only thing I can't do is my hair. I can cook, I can clean, I'm good with kids and my siblings and I'm pretty independent overall. It's the only thing I can't do. She always brings that up when she's irritated with me.
So then my mom joins her right, and they start going off at me. Saying I'm too old not to know how to do my hair (I'm 15 but going on 16 in a few months.). And it's not like I don't know that. I feel stupid enough not knowing how to do it.
So now I start trying to backtrack and try explaining that I don't care all that much really. But that made them more upset at me? So upset that the scolding quite literally went to straight up insulting and humiliating me.
For example: Calling me a stud (Something classmates have been calling me that has been bothering me), dumb and stupid, ungrateful. Saying I'm acting like I'm 4.
And when I started crying, they told me to look at them while they talk (They weren't talking, they were actually yelling at me, loud enough to wake my siblings). They knew they hurt my feelings and just kept going and going.
And this isn't the first time either, they always do things like this to me and just me. My siblings get away with shit I can only dream of.
So I just want to know is this normal? Am I doing too much? I just don't understand why it's always me being treated like this just because I'm older.