Y'all like to hate on FL for hesitating and all, but that was only recently.
But throughout 99% percent of all this time, she's been so mature in handling all these complicated circumstances that I highly doubt most of you complaining about her could even do the same in that situation.
Y'all like to say, "why the hell is she thinking/feeling that way!??" but if put in her shoes in real life, you'd probably do much worse than how she's dealing with these things.