ichikomi

**dissertation below!! i know this is BL yall i just like literary analysis!!*
everyone is loving this i just…dont. not even because the plot or anything but i just dont have buy in. it doesnt even seem like for a second it wouldnt work out. it feels like there are no real stakes…ive seen this whole “long distance university” plot done well, but it’s so often done poorly. and i think it is, unfortunately, an example of that. everything is too fast!!! i know we have to basically cover a whole year in this but this conflict was brought up almost halfway through the volume. i dont feel the impact of rui wanting to go to france cause we
1. just learned he wants to do design
2. just learned about his grandmother
3. didnt even see rui contemplating prior to him revealing it
it felt like the author needed a conflict to lean on and chose something that is difficult to execute even with a full five or six chapters, yet alone two or three. i mean, i flinched when they were going around saying their colleges because it legitimately came out of nowhere. yes there was a little scene with the career planning for yuujiro and the ominous ending of that chapter, but the second chapter completely failed to pick back up on that so i genuinely just forgot about it.
the story isnt necessarily b a d because the characters and their chemistry is great. i just think it couldve been better if there was an attempt at audience buy in where we knew these interests beforehand and saw rui occasionally thinking about design school in france even just in passing. but they did not write that, so the plot line feels flat and rushed. especially compared to the pacing from the first volume (which was SO well done). maybe that set my standards too high for this author and i blame myself for that, but i wish this entire story felt more…worthwhile? i feel like the first two chapters could be dumped and the conflict could stretch out from the first chapter to the penultimate or ultimate chapter and have so much more development.
i know ive written an essay, but i had such high hopes. i even enjoyed the first two/three chapters a lot!!! i wish the author would have chosen a different conflict or wouldve a c t u a l l y dedicated the whole volume to the conflict instead of it coming out of left field. oh i also especially hate that dinner scene—yuujiro is an overthinker, yeah, but he had no reason to be so cruel. like did you really NEVER consider that his family would make those kinds of comments?? especially knowing you havent told them anything about your relationship? even your parents dont know, yuujiro, so it’s notnlike a rejection. im just so sad…really wanted to like this but instead my disappointment pushed me to write a dissertation :(

i want to keep enjoying this so so bad but seokjun is such an ass it feels like worms are eating away at my brain each time the wimp of a top gives in!!! PUT UP A REAL FIGHT!!! MAKE THAT MAN SHUT UP!!!! yeah this is freaky but the freak limits are so vast…you could shut that man up i know you could…