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Idk if that the best place here but look, I have a boyfriend whom i've been with for 2 years, we really love each other but we currently on long distance relationship since a year ago (for family matters and none of us can visit the other, he's 18 and im 17*)
So the thing is that i think I have a crush on someone, that boy was my classmate last year and and we're in the same class this year too. He tried hitting on me last year but i did not to give him attention, but honestly back then I felt an attraction between us, I did my best to ignore it 'coz one of my principle is loyalty yk.
He eventually stopped coz I showed no interest and we kinda stopped interacting but we still exchanged some glance and idk it felt like we wanted to talk but I couldn't and I think he sensed that so he wouldn't make a step too, soo that was it for the rest of the year. Still he stayed in a corner of my mind even during summer vacation. I hated myself for that and I still hate that I think about him even tho I love my bf, I feel so bad...
So since school debuted we see each other again and we make small talks. The problem is that i'm starting to develop feelings again and I don't want them !!! And I do NOT want to break up with my lover, he's truly a good guy and i just don't see why.. i'm so lost with my own needs and feelings it's frustrating