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I could not care less about that rapist, the ML, but I’m here for MC’s character growth!! He absolutely dazzled me in chapter 15 - I had to pause and savor the moment lol.
I did already feel sympathy for MC in the earlier chapters.
Because even though it wasn’t clear right out what part he had in an atrocious event in the past (there were only hints of being haunted by the memory of another person’s suffering and the full picture was yet to be revealed) no one should be tormented like that — being raped every night is inexcusable!
But more than that, Erwar had this quiet strength about him — he never wallows in self-pity for too long. He mocks his own situation at times, but he’s not consumed by bitterness yet. He’s struggling with body ailments because of his nightmarish nights that he can’t explain to anyone (due to his memory of them being wiped clean and later on due to how outrageous the truth is that no one can possibly believe him), so he can be short-tempered. However, he treats the people around him with even-temperedness and warmth most of the time. The devil calls his soul pure (ironic since he claims to have supposedly come to MC as punishment for the wrongs he has done to someone), and Tristan said it outright how Erwar may look cold on the outside but has a warm heart. The servants also can sense that the bouts of ill-temper may be due to the exhaustion they see the Count was battling - they understand as well that Erwar is not truly a bad person or master.
This earned my respect throughout the beginning chapter.
Then I was blown away by MC in Chapter 15 :)
Anyway, I am LOCKED IN. I was only halfway in before because of how hateful ML is, but I’m fully on the ship now for MC — I can’t possibly miss his character development yall.