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I relate to both of them, like when I was in the first paste of Jinhyeong I would literally shame myself for scoring so low on my exam and belliterate myself how can I score so shitty at the the exam when I studied it for a past few days,I would curse my professor, myself, and feeling so frustrated to everyone. Cuz it's true if I were scored so low in a math test or any test or something I want to achieve despite all the effort I would be so frustrated to do anything and keep cursing myself and everyone.
And if anyone also said that "the exam is pretty easy" or "you do better next time." My mind wouldn't be put at ease at such words even they are being kind to me, I would twist their words and think so sickeningly about them.
"Since I was such a messed-up person everyone else look the same to me. That's just why I end up hating everyone."
" I hate this person for that reason and that person for another."
Which is really true reading this dialogue to Jinheyeong, I was just full of hatred of people back then but I was just keep it in facade. I twisted everything I saw or what people did or talk to me. But I already get rid off that kind of mindset to myself and start functioning properly.
And about to Song-yun I related to him like being at best at something you're good at but being medicore when being compared to others is such a gut wrenching hit in the stomach. You accept that you are just a medium at something, not good or not bad you're just doing your best but it keeps you infuriated seeing other people being more good at something than your good at.