i don't know abt yall, but as a closeted bisexual, im glad the author chose to go this way. my FIRST and only mlm relationship ended because of the fucking anxiety, paranoia and the constant overthinking. not because we fell out love!!!!!! it's that damn fear. it's not easy at all to be closeted and worse to be in a very toxic environment. even when u know no one's watching or judging,,, it still feels like people are looking at u and talking shit behind ur back. we were in the same circle of friends and tbh, we could have flirtef with each other as a joke, kissed as a joke, hugged as a joke. no one's gonna bat an eye. they'll just think we are boys being boys. that we are just goofing around. but i couldn't do that with him. what's between us are real, and we couldn't take the risk to slip even a little. even talking to each other makes us wonder if someone noticed something. it's fucking scary and draining. we had to overthink all our interactions. we also made up fake girl crushes (im convinced this is a universal closeted experienced lolll). we let ourselves get teased about the girls we "like" just to completely erase any (nonexistent) suspicion. im not saying it's a good thing. it's exhausting. it's not fun. making up lots of lies will drain u. plus yall both dumb af for getting jealous over the shits u made up. but what im trying to say is, this "trope" is a reality to some people. i feel so seen with this kind of trope. yeah, people are more open to same-sex relationships nowadays but it’s not that easy to erase the fear that u grew up with. guys, im not saying that jiwoon did was okay. it's not at all. i really hope he finds the courage to speak up and be open in the future. but it's kinda sad seeing people hate on hus character or the author. it's okay to be disappointed but let's not forget why jiwoon acts that way. cause I fucking swaer, same-sex relationships are not for the weak. i cannot properly explain to u how it ruined us. all i could say is that relationship sucked the life out of me. the fear i felt during that year left me traumatized. i promised myself it would be my first and last mlm relationship
