I honestly don’t know how id be as a guy except for the fact that id probably not style myself as much as i do as a girl cus of id probably be called gay by my very narrow-minded parents(〜￣△￣)〜 reply
Looking at old pictures and i js realized that my image of myself is way different to how i actually look, so i got curious if anyone else have had an epiphany that they were actually pretty chopped ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
Ok so for context, im basically obsessed w this boy in my school and he's rlly cute and nice imo, like when we did dofe tgt we switched bags cus my bag broke and he probably wouldn't do that for anyone else cus my other teammate's bag also broke (hers broke first) but he only offered to carry my bag, and he's rlly nice to me, or atleast i think he's being nice... But the thing is, he's part of "the boys" or like he's one of those kids who mess around a lot, and I'm the exact opposite im the biggest teacher's pet and im one of those kids who's rlly involved and like top grades. Do u think there's a chance that he could like me? We sit next to each other in one class and ppl say that we look rlly close, but other than that we don't rlly talk, i would say that he's nicer to me than other ppl but idk cus im not that close w him.. I should probably stop this obsession, someone pls give me ur worst dating experience js so i would be scared off. (￣ε(#￣)Σ
I am actually so disgusted of myself, i genuinely wanna be a better person. I've tried so hard but i keep circling back to the same self centered bitch ☹ I js wish i could js not give a fuck abt others so much that it feels like my heart is a bomb that'll blow up hurting everyone even if it means I'll be hurting myself the most, i keep wanting to be appreciated for what i put my effort into, i keep thinking only of what I've done in a group setting and undermining what others have contributed, i keep getting jealous of everyone and i always end up making them think they're not all that, when THEY ARE. I know that i should learn to appreciate myself and what i have more but what do i do about this craving to make myself be better than everyone else? And tbh im not even all that bad, i get good grades, have a good amount of extracurriculars, enough skill in what i do to be considered better than average, but i still keep wanting what others have. I rlly wish i can stop this bullshit im doing. Are these feelings of mine that i think of as complex actually js a facade for childish feelings to comfort this demon in me or are my feelings actually as valid as i hope they are
Anyone who's doing/done dofe, i beg of u pls tell me what i should or need to do like what should i wear!?!?!? My mum got me shorts which i think aren't a good idea, but i do want to wear them, I'm also like probably gonna wear leggings... (￣ε(#￣)Σ
Honestly idek why im asking on here, but anyone got any tips on how to survive doing music?? (￣ε(#￣)Σ OR any core memories u got from doing music?(⊙…⊙ )
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