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tbh i think the writing for seonwoo is Really good interesting characters don’t always have to be morally perfect and all of seonwoo’s actions just make too much sense considering how he was raised. all the love he has ever known is fake and this made him compulsively “check” if people will truly love him even if he hurts them and is the worst person - he essentially believes he is incapable of love and won’t stop until he proves to himself that the person who claims to love him is actually lying because it’s better to be thrown away early before he gets in too deep? and being in his position, it’s true that most of the people around him are there for superficial reasons, he was casted out by his own family and is regularly exposed to the manipulation and psychological torture of his younger brother.. even now he learns that the only person he thought he could call his family was indeed lying to him and actually wants to kill him now that he’s of no use… it makes complete and utter sense that he’s distrustful and him hurting other people in the process also makes sense because other people have always hurted him for no reason? you apply what you learn from experience yknow. it doesn’t make sense to expect someone who grew in a abusive environment to continue to be kind to others and not let their trauma affect them. like yes his actions are terrible obviously but they definately make sense and i think it’s so ridiculous to be like “eh he had a sad past but he shouldn’t hurt others” because it’s so idealistic and sadly many people do not have the comfort and privilege to look easily past their trauma and not let it affect them seonwoo’s victims are allowed to hate him but as readers, i think we of all people should acknowledge the very good example of how trauma is not always a convenient mental illness but can also affect others lives too - and ultimately seonwoo is the one who loses the chance of receiving a decent chance of living a fulfilling life at all. it’s just so unfair to be destined from your birth to live a life without the warmth of unconditional love and belonging.