
i want them all to suffer 10x as much as luan and clauden are. especially the dad and older brother, but mom too for being a complicit doormat. no shit, you make your son/little brother's life hell, he's gonna be hyper obsessed with the only thing (person) that ever made him happy, even if he cant remember clearly. i dont even remember what my great grandma looks like btw, and i was already 16 when she passed. NOT saying what he did was right. i feel awful for clauden, and the mixed emotions he's feeling. i truly hope clauden finds happiness with someone who didn't berate and abuse him as bad as luan did. but none of this shit would've even happened without this inconsiderate negligent selfish fuck ass family. the audacity of the dad to not even respond when asked if he's give up his wife. not even making an effort to understand his son, which he had years to do mind you. knowing full well he's pushed him into a life he Doesn't Want and was only convinced into working hard FOR THAT PERSON. good god torture would be too kind for these people. i can only hope clauden is happy and luan recovers, but i certainly don't want this family to feel happy ever again. fuck them
this was awful
i'm not even the annoying puritan type that needs everything to be morally correct in my yaoi or whatever. this was just genuinely bad on every level. maybe some of ray's internal musings about his own morality were compelling at times, and i did like that the story acknowledged the son as the neglected child he was rather than an evil supervillain, but...wow. go girl, give us nothing.
fugly, boring top. i'd seriously take an old man or the ml's kid or fuck even the mc's brother as the top over this genuinely hideous (to me) man. mildly interesting bottom but he's god's favorite child apparently so he sucked up all the interesting bits the others could've had, and that's not even much.
lots of potential, with none of it met. i'd say this really is the pinnacle of "potential man". could've been an actually dark and fascinating read but i swear there's nothing about this that even justifies all the mediocre and unrealized plot you have to trudge through for quite literally 0 pay off. i mean, i seem to be alone in finding the art not very appealing, so if you're into this artstyle i Guess??? you could find joy in it. and i read the first few smut scenes, but they weren’t my thing so i skipped the rest.
jeez, and i usually love size difference, age gap, toxic/abusive dynamics...the whole works. this was supposed to be my moment for real.
i'm a freak and i don't like this. just remember that. even this freak who almost exclusively reads mindless slop and deranged smut on the weekends thinks this was ass.