
yi zaha the man you are. he's so hot in the non-typical non-conventional way that i can't explain. i don't even know why i like him so much. perhaps his weirdness, his derangement, or his strength all the same time. i think one factor is really the fact that the author doesn't give him explicit fanservice so we don't really see him show a lot of skin. and you know what they say, the more they hide the more i imagine. i don't even fantasize about him having a very built body, rather i imagine that he has a fit and lean body with just the right amount of muscles where it matters. the love i hold for him is one where i would rather just admire from afar than be able to give away my presence to him. i wouldn't sacrifice myself for him, but i would spend years honing my art skills just to be able to show a fragment of his beauty, because i would never be able to capture the essence of his very being in a simple painting.

this is so good i love their dynamic and personalities so much it's not the generic and basic top x bottom dynamic you'd usually see in other yaoi. also, so much crying !!! i love when men cry during sex and it's amazing a
that the author let them both cry that much. god this author was onto some shit when they made this i can't stop rereading it.
the part about you and your sibling distancing from each other is so real... the author definitely has siblings
FR. And they made a brother and sister, which is exactly like me and my sibling. I was feeling so anxious for them!