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I haven't commented on Woowon and Seoan's relationship because I felt it was pretty straight forward since the beginning of S1. I did stop following it since I wanted the dad situation to marinate so I could read it in full. I will say I enjoyed Won being how he is now more than I did in S1 (here me out! Cause know some people don't like what's been goin on in the last few chapters)

Woowon from S1 is a reserved man that doesn't have much of a personality outside what he likes. Which is Seoan, but we see over the course of learning about him this stems from lack of control at home. He and his mother are poor and his father abuse and used them for many years (holding his fatherly role over Won's head and getting money out of him). This is a boy becoming a man without guidance. He doesn't know how to release that pain healthily, you see it with how he burdens himself with his mothers pain and his own. He tries to take own both of their shared pains alone which is really catastrophic.

Then we have Seoan and man that has a emotionally neglectful father that treats him like an employee more than his child. This is a man with anxiety disorder and control issues, just like his boyfriend he doesn't have control of his life completely so he uses his control with his relationship with Woowon to keep it in line. He knows without control he would be risking losing everything. This is why he never ask Woowon if he wanted to come with him but instead made the decision for both of them. He knows Woowon wouldn't fight it (lacks having control) and he can keep both of them "safe" and together (harbor's on control) both are one in the same and need not only therapy and but an honest conversation about how to love each other and respect each others wishes.

If they both give up control and takes some control (give and take method) they may be able to actually balance themselves out better.

This is why I actually like these last few chapters. Is it sad and uncomfortable to watch
Won use sex to avoid his true feelings (yes it is) but it shows him trying to battle his emotions that he lacks control of (see how I mentioned his issue with not having control his whole life) and then we have Seoan willingly giving into Won's emotional needs and relinquishing some of that control he usually has. He lets Won win in the end because he can tell he's cracking and doesn't know what do outside of giving his body to his boyfriend to hold on to (letting go of control).

This is not a healthy way to handle problems and I agree they really have to talk at some point, but I like seeing both of them falling out of control. Hopefully it means we can finally find that real balance they so desperately need.

Sorry this was long as hell (●'◡'●)ﾉ

I haven't commented on Woowon and Seoan's relationship because I felt it was pretty straight forward since the beginning of S1. I did stop following it since I wanted the dad situation to marinate so I could read it in full. I will say I enjoyed Won being how he is now more than I did in S1 (here me out! Cause know some people don't like what's been goin on in the last few chapters)

Woowon from S1 is a reserved man that doesn't have much of a personality outside what he likes. Which is Seoan, but we see over the course of learning about him this stems from lack of control at home. He and his mother are poor and his father abuse and used them for many years (holding his fatherly role over Won's head and getting money out of him). This is a boy becoming a man without guidance. He doesn't know how to release that pain healthily, you see it with how he burdens himself with his mothers pain and his own. He tries to take own both of their shared pains alone which is really catastrophic.

Then we have Seoan and man that has a emotionally neglectful father that treats him like an employee more than his child. This is a man with anxiety disorder and control issues, just like his boyfriend he doesn't have control of his life completely so he uses his control with his relationship with Woowon to keep it in line. He knows without control he would be risking losing everything. This is why he never ask Woowon if he wanted to come with him but instead made the decision for both of them. He knows Woowon wouldn't fight it (lacks having control) and he can keep both of them "safe" and together (harbor's on control) both are one in the same and need not only therapy and but an honest conversation about how to love each other and respect each others wishes.

If they both give up control and takes some control (give and take method) they may be able to actually balance themselves out better.

This is why I actually like these last few chapters. Is it sad and uncomfortable to watch
Won use sex to avoid his true feelings (yes it is) but it shows him trying to battle his emotions that he lacks control of (see how I mentioned his issue with not having control his whole life) and then we have Seoan willingly giving into Won's emotional needs and relinquishing some of that control he usually has. He lets Won win in the end because he can tell he's cracking and doesn't know what do outside of giving his body to his boyfriend to hold on to (letting go of control).

This is not a healthy way to handle problems and I agree they really have to talk at some point, but I like seeing both of them falling out of control. Hopefully it means we can finally find that real balance they so desperately need.

Sorry this was long as hell (●'◡'●)ﾉ

A list of BL works I enjoyed reading

- no rape between main characters
- consent is priority
- non-abusive & non-heteronormative relationship
- some contain dub-con scenes but I'll make sure to put TW
- ongoing works that turn out problematic will be deleted
- depends on my personal preference

☆ = fave

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