It’s not like we’re just assuming things or making stuff up.......
the author herself said he’s a rival to the ML....
She even included his hand on the cover and added a new keyword: ‘second ML' which is always used when a character has romantic feelings for the MC ...
And right now, we don’t even know when his feelings started to shift from pity and sadness for his situation to romantic or sexual desire..
since we know he met him when he was still a child, and watched him grow little by little ..
it’s completely natural to see him more like a real brother than a love interest. ..
We truly love their relationship the way it is — there’s no need to ruin it ....
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Honestly, I didn’t like the story at all for several reasons... At first, I thought it was good, and I was looking forward to seeing how the MC would begin to understand emotions over time, and how his feelings toward the ML would gradually change...
But making him sleep with other people — that was just too much.
The first time might be somewhat acceptable, since he still didn’t understand what was wrong or what he truly felt... so you could overlook it.
But the second time? It was just absolutely disgusting and unnecessary. ...
It completely made me lose interest.
I rushed through the rest of the story and didn’t even bother to read the side stories.....
What’s the point of making the MC sleep with someone else like that near the end of the story?
And the ML’s reaction was so unrealistic and strange…
he sleeps with him again while the cum of that guy is still dripping from him...
That’s just revolting.
It honestly ruined the entire story for me...
That’s just my opinion...
Taeyang deserves better....
He’s incredibly attractive — handsome, charming, bright, understanding, and kind...
I honestly don’t get why he’s still holding on to someone like that.
Okay, i feel really bad for you and i understand your past trauma and bad experiences — and yeh fuck your basterd father
But that’s not an excuse to hurt others,
especially someone who loves you this much.
Are you afraid he’ll go through what you went through?
You don’t want him to suffer like you did?
Really?
Then be a man and break up with him clearly,
don’t just abandon him like a coward...
That’s exactly why Taeyang can’t move on.
He can’t even get it up anymore.
Even the doctor said it’s psychological...
So tell me — is it right to hurt someone who loves you so deeply,
while you’ve already moved on, have a child, and sleep around freely .... that not fair
And even when he saw you again, he understood everything...
All he asked was for you to go on seven dates with him,
to focus only on him — and if you didn’t like it, just tell him.
Was that really too hard?
Instead, you ran off like a coward to flirt with another man... and and ask him to sleep with you
Is that even a proper way to escape?
Instead of facing things like an adult, you just acted childish.
Honestly, I don’t even know who the real kid here
It’s not even logical to keep loving someone who abandoned you like that —
after all these years, and he’s still hurting you.
Oh, and the whole story just dosen't make sence in general...
And how just how a gay man — bottom ! Uke!
managed to sleep with a woman !? And have a kid !!
That’s just ridiculous ...
Anyway, I didn’t enjoy the story....
I only followed it to see how it would end....
Good thing it was short....
Let’s be fair here.
I honestly feel really bad for Horus.....
He’s truly a good person, and out of all the MLs in this story,
you could say he’s the only one who genuinely loves Seth from the bottom of his heart — and is willing to do anything for him.....
And let’s be real… Seth would’ve suffered a lot more if Horus hadn’t been there for him.....
But it's not like Seth asked for any of this....
And it's not like he's obligated to love him back...
Simply and very clearly — Seth doesn’t love Horus..
Yes, he just doesn’t love him....
He’s only going along with it — the same way you’d play along with a little kid....
And that’s not his fault....
Love isn’t something you can force....
I don’t even like Seth that much...
but if you're calling him a whore —
you seriously need to reread the story....
Because all I see is rape, from beginning to end.
Now about what happened in the last chapter...
I wasn’t expecting that....
Yes, his wife didn’t die and she was saved —
but if Horus had just been honest about it from the start, none of this would’ve happened....
As for Seth,
I did expect him to be angry, and even lash out at Horus,
but not like that.
That felt like something you’d do to your worst enemy —
not to someone who loves you deeply and sees you as their entire world.
It was just… too much....
So as I said earlier —
Seth simply doesn’t love him...
And honestly, I don’t even think he cares about him — not even a little bit.
That’s why I really don’t want them to end up together.
Seth wants his wife....
He doesn’t love Horus.
And Horus deserves someone who actually loves him back....
So if this story ends with them completely separated, I’ll be happy.
But knowing the author, they’ll probably drag things out for a while…
Horus won’t be waking up anytime soon...
and I guess Seth will give in for now and stay with that annoying bastard...
We’ll likely get more of those unpleasant scenes again…
until he knows what truly happened...
Honestly, I think I’ll just disappear and maybe come back after 10 years ....
Woojin suffers from antisocial personality disorder.
He didn't understand feelings in his life.. feels them but doen't know what they are. ..
He was treated as a monster by his family all his life..
for the first time after Haewon left him, he realizes that perhaps this was love...
So Haewon broke up with him, even though Woojin didn't understand what a breakup meant and thought Haewon was angry because he lied..
He just didn't understand why they broke up. ..
Here, it's okay, the shocking thing is coming
Haewon tries to avenge his friend, he does the stupidest thing a human being can do (really one of the stupidest MCs in the entire BL world, it's not like he really considered Taeshin his friend, I don't understand why he did that !! )
(he tries to destroy himself to make Woojin understand the matter and take revenge on him...
The novel is very long
I read some spoilers here and there, this is a summary because there are many, many details
After several things happened Haewon admits that he likes Woojin, and at some point he becomes obsessed with him...
He takes many pictures of him and records his voice to hear when he misses him. ..
He becomes more childish... gets angry with him when he is busy with work, turns off his phone so that no one will interrupt them...
Haewon has dated and slept with many people, but this is his first time loving someone...
He thinks about him all the time and feels jealous of those who were with him before him...
Their relationship continues for a year or more
Then Haewon discovers that Woojin deceived him and approached him because it is part of his plan (he wants something that Haewon’s friend gave him) and that he's a person who uses people to achieve his goals, and his friend committed suicide because of him, as did his fiancée
(they loved him madly but he didn't care about them, he slept with his fiancée’s sister, and he also introduced Taeshin to his friends and they gang-raped him ),
(He wasn't with them, he was never interested in sex before meeting Haewon, he only sleeps with people to fulfill his interests).. but he was the reason
My Personal Thoughts on the Novel .....
(spoiler spoiler and very very long)
Honestly, I didn’t like the story at all… for several reasons.
.The most important reason is that
1) I deeply pitied the ML (main lead).
* He went through extreme trauma as a child. He and his friend (the SML) were test subjects, but he endured far worse.
* His family exploited him and showed no concern for his feelings.
*The only thing keeping him alive was the memory of meeting the MC ten years ago and the hope of seeing him again. But when that finally happened?
The MC didn’t remember him at all and only recalled the SML saving him — even though it was the ML who actually saved his life.
&The ML sacrificed everything — his energy, his life, ( and they both imprinting) . ML did it, certain that he was going to die. It was his last hope to save MC and let him live.
He was the one who gave him , precious necklace meant to be given only to a life partner.
*After surviving, he had to take on a new identity and When he met the MC again (now a doctor), he was suffering from an unstable condition caused by a one-sided imprinting.
He was in constant pain and close to breaking down.
He was genuinely excited to meet the only person he ever loved.
But the MC had no memory of him — and even worse, he was constantly flirting with the SML...
The ML had remained faithful all those years — he never even dated anyone else.
And now, the person he longed for was showing affection to someone else right in front of him.
*The only person the ML trusted was the SML, and now that friend had become his rival. It was hellish.
He never told anyone about what happened. He was afraid that if he got close to the MC, it might put him in danger. So he stayed away, silently suffering..
I honestly don’t know how he survived emotionally.
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2) I didn't like the MC's personality :
*After being saved, he lived a relatively normal, social life. He had dated people before.
Yet he acted naïve, like he was new to these things.
He continued to flirt with SML under the pretext that he was his lifesaver and it was only natural for him to like him.
Even after officially dating ML,
There was a lot of Physical contact, cause he's feeling guilty and it is okay, he's his teacher.
Even in the side stories, the ML was constantly hurt.
Another person (a patient also treated by the MC) began to show interest in the ML, and the MC didn’t even notice...
Even when the ML told him , he just brushed it off, thinking the ML’s jealousy was immature.
He kept caring about that other person, thinking they might be traumatized — completely ignoring the ML’s obvious distress and insecurity.
The ML had to endure all of this silently because he promised not to interfere with the MC's work.
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3) I didn’t like the SmL , (good person but he was just… too clingy).
What also frustrated me The story wasn't presented as a love triangle, nor was there even a third party,(Keywords) which I found very strange.
How could it not be? For more than half of the story, you don't know who the ML is?
Even in the second part of the novel, there are many scenes between SmL and Dr,
and the ML appears less often, There is even more than one chapter explaining his pov from his first meeting with the dr ...
so you wonder if he's really the ML?
The Dr also thought about dating him more than once. He thinks he's his savior, a kind and handsome person, and comfortable to be with. But he backs out every time. .....
Eventually, he comes to the conclusion that he's just comfortable with him and doesn't think of him as a lover
Only later, when he thought about the ML, did his heart race and he fells safer with him more .
But that took far too long ......
But I don’t blame the SmL — the MC led him on constantly....
To the point that when the SmL found out about the MC and ML’s relationship, he was deeply hurt...
<spoiler>(he went to them at night and found them together; the Dr was asleep but overheard the conversation),
Sml he felt betrayed and very angry.
He said, "I thought Dr liked me."
The funny thing is that the Dr was just… confused.
Like, "Why would the SmL think I liked him? What did I do to give that impression?"
Seriously?! There’s a limit to how oblivious one can be.
We’re told that the MC is a capable and intelligent person — not a clueless fool.
He clearly knew the SmL had feelings for him and still treated him in a way that encouraged those feelings.
I was frustrated through the whole story:
To be honest, I started skimming many parts just to get through it.
I hated how the MC was portrayed — easily the worst character for me.
The ML was only there to be jealous all the time, and the MC would just say it’s cute or childish.
Like: “Oh, he’s just inexperienced. Maybe it’s because it’s his first relationship.”
And is it necessary that every person who appears must like the dr and the ML must be jealous ?
Jealousy is fine sometimes, but when it’s constant from beginning to end — mixed with feelings of inferiority and fear — it’s exhausting.
One heartbreaking moment made me hate the story even more:
When they were officially dating, and because of the Dr's conversation with the center commander, he began to remember the past and the little person he was with (there's a 5-year difference between them).
He began to feel suffocated and shocked.
The ML tried to calm him down, but he was dreaming and screaming the SML's name. ...
(misunderstanding) but was so painful. .....
His heart was aching .....
He didn't know what to do. ....
He called SmL to come because Dr. was asking for him.
The SmL sarcastically told him it was pathtic that he couldn't do such a simple thing as calm him down, and several other words....
The ML was so embarrassed.
He didn't want to call him, but he was afraid for Dr. He thought he was the most important thing, not his feelings, so he left......
Even when he came back, he heard Dr thanking SML and telling him that he was better thanks to him.....
He felt there was no point in his presence, so he left again.
making the ML feel completely worthless.
when Dr. woke up, he was looking for ml. ...
But he found SmL lying on his knees...
He thanked him profusely and apologized.
He even let him sleep while he stroked his hair, justifying it by saying that he felt pity and guilt towards him .....
So the SmL confessed his feelings,
the Dr. apologized and sadly gave him the necklace, but told him that it wasn't his and that it belonged to ML...
So he went to look for ML and... He wonders why the ML's face was so strange and heartbroken.. back then ..
After that
The MC was kidnapped.
The ML searched for him like a madman
and the team goes out to rescue him.
Use another esper from the team to threaten the dr to get a project ..
Unfortunately, that esper was beaten badly ..
The MC stayed beside him, crying and treating his wounds, hoping the ML would come rescue them.
Eventually, they were saved, and the ML stayed behind to fight alone while the others were taken to safety.
Continued frustration:
The SmL jokes and says to the Dr ...
"Can't you have both of us? I'll accept to be the second."
The DR refuses, feeling guilty,
The SmL tells him that he doesn't want him to stop being his teacher.
The DR tells him that's for sure, but he jokes, "But you can't have an affair with a teacher." They continue laughing.....
There was more than one joke about cheating...
Continuing to joke like this is annoying.
I don't know, is this normal?
No, actually.
Is it normal for physical contact to continue like this?
Anyway ,He also finally found that the child from 10 years ago is the ML after the SmL tells him so.
The Dr thanks him and tells him he's the coolest man he's ever known.
Then he quickly goes to meet the ML
When they meet, the ML confesses everything.
The MC replies that even though they met in a different time and place, he still fell in love with the same little boy all over again.
Mmmm Really?
And some events.... then the ending....
There are side stories...
So Let’s be honest — the ML loved him far more than he love the ml back
And as they say, the one who loves more always loses more
Summary & Final Impression (from my perspective):
This story is emotionally draining and deeply unfair to the ML, who gave everything....
The MC was portrayed inconsistently, naive .....
The SmL was more present than needed, and the “triangle” wasn’t properly established until very late..
even the long side story was about him and Dr (the author made him the doctor's bodyguard chosen by the ML himself, as they were together for a week in the same house, while the ML was away), isn't that redicous ?
I just didn't understand what the author wanted !
There was too much unbalanced affection, lack of emotional payoff,
I don’t think I’ll continue with the manhwa.
Well this is just my opinion.....
Unfortunately I feel like I lost interest in the story and the S3 is really annoying now .... .
Do you think that after I saw all of their past, will I enjoy that bastard Lorcan flirting with Ian now...
and Ian letting him do whatever he wants, because he doesn't understand Lorcan's moves but accepts them he can't refuse him ....
it's really annoying, he's the reason for his death and Sol's misery and waiting alone for a thousand years until the one he loves returns...that's sad
I don't blame Ian, he doesn't remember anything..
I just can't see this...
I can't sympathize with that bastard or accept him in any way, so the story no longer attracts me, it just annoys me, so I'll drop it....
maybe I'll come back to see the ending, that's if the writer decides to end it ...
After the first season I stopped reading.... went back to see what happened and skimmed through it quickly...
Umm I didn't want to continue or even read anymore...
I hate love triangles especially this , but I decided to give it a try but it seems like it's taking too long and the MC is going here and there and it's not fair to either of them....
Jo is a good and nice person... and i think it's okay for him to be the end game...
Tj I don't know why when I see him I just feel sad..
and even though I like him more I don't want him to end up with Ian...
I want an ending where he is happy without Ian ...
Is this possible
Well if I give my rating for the story so far..
in the raw also (up to 39)....
The drawing is only good...
The content is chaotic and doesn't lead to anything..
The mc here is really useless....from the beginning I don't know why he joined them, his presence with the ML didn't help him at all in completing the mission, but on the contrary, it became a burden on him...
With the beginning of the S2, the story became more chaotic, heading to the mountains.....
a third wheel was introduced, suddenly a detailed kiss, then 3p as a dream....
This was very strange.....
from the prosecutor's side, he's interested in mc because he's just an ordinary policeman who entered such a dangerous mission..
I find the reason strange !! because the mc here isn't capable.. he didn't do anything really, but the ML is the one leading the mission.....
And from the mc's side....
Is it normal for this to happen like desiring him and dreaming about something like this while he didn't meet the prosecutor until a few days ago?
Doesn't that make the MC's love seem ridiculous and impure, is that the author's goal !!....
because if you read the chapters before this, all the MC's dreams were about the ML and suddenly they included a third person (3P) after meeting him a few times as if he loves them both, this happens in stories that contain love triangles ,where the person has feelings for both !!
Well if you suddenly want to do that, you are free author, this is your story, but you can change the cover or no at least change the story's keywords, this is what other authors do....
Here we read for free... but many users pay to read, they complained a lot about the inaccurate classification and the sudden change.... so if you want to change the content, give a notice of that by adding the keywords....
I don't know how the story ends but I don't think it progresses at all ...
so if you are only interested in the drawing, this manhwa is for you, but if you care more about the content more , and you hate chaos
Or
you like stories that contain pure love and you hate the presence of a third wheel suddenly in a strange way, save yourself from the trouble of reading ...
Umm....
anyway I really don't see what's special about the MC and I don't care about him..
I just want KASHIMA to be happy even if it doesn't end up with him, in fact I'd rather it not end up with him...
he can stay with the other person...
And KASHIMA should get someone else who loves him..
In my opinion, he's a person worth competing over, not competing in a ridiculous love triangle..
This is my opinion, but it doesn't matter in the end... I think it's better not to take the story seriously...
maybe because it's been going on for too long, or because they're still kids, I find it ridiculous....
I feel like throwing up when I see them acting like this..
look at them, these bastards....
Damn them...
They talk like they care about the MC and would die without him..
how dare they? these rapist bastards are the reason for his suffering and miserable life...
just fuck off ,
and look how they brushed the rape aside like it was nothing, they even made the MC feel sad for leaving,
damn, I just feel so bad for him..
They should have just died..
And the MC could have moved on and been happy.
That way I would have been relieved..
But what is this ending? They made him so desperate he can't live without the commander...
Well a happy ending for those who like that, but I just feel sad when I remember what he had to go through to be happy again ..
But i will keep saying ... fuck all of you four dirty bastards...
Wow the story is really taking a weird disgusting turn..
It's getting worse...
Did the author have to do that...
It's a shame..
I'm really sad for the ML, it just ruined the story,
is this really love ?
,after knowing what happened to the ml and how he always thinks about you ...and only you
is it logical for him to think about someone else and desire them in this way ?
While the ml is being beaten and threatened because of you, do you have time to think about someone else just because of a kiss? Just fuck off, what a stupid love you have
how disgusting, I just hope the ML leaves and never looks back..
Fuck this... disgusting mc
I don't know. .
The manhwa is over, but I feel really bad for the ML..
Even after the happy ending, I feel really bad. ..
Did the author have to make me hate the MC so much?
Even if he has amnesia, you're in a relationship, and you know it... and what you're doing is cheating..
I hated the story after that, but I still finished it reluctantly,
but of course I don't want to reread it or even remember it ever...
After reading the spoilers, apart from that bastard sml and his deceitful actions and the FL's blind trust in him as if he was her lover.....
the only person you can love is the ML, not even before that he is just the best character...
I really feel bad for him, he deserves much better than that stupid FL, she does nothing but hurt him over and over again...
she is selfish and does whatever she wants without caring about those around her, but the author covered it up by making her seem like the nicest person on earth....
she believed that snake bastard's words, and went on a long trip with him and was enjoying her time completely, while the ML struggles to find her and his heart is torn, until he almost got killed because of that bastard.....
damn them all, the ML doesn't deserve to be here...
not to mention that she doesn't know something called boundaries, she keeps touching with the Sml a lot, whoever sees them thinks they are lovers...
this was fucking annoying so I left a lot of chapters, this seems like cheating....
if the ML did that with a female friend for example, everyone would be against him...
and that's just a little of what It happened but all I can say is damn really the ml deserves much better...
The truth here is that both main characters lack maturity and communication, and they also think a lot for no reason.....
but why do I find many people here blaming ML alone,
what did he do? Was it because he covered the MC with pheromone? I didn't like that, but he did it because he thought that the MC beta he couldn't hurt him if he knew he was an omega and the pheromone affected him...
Or because he told him that it was good that he a beta ? That cause he fully believed that it was impossible for him to be an omega, he didn't think that he would hide it from him......
and this strange ....really no one cares about the trauma he went through when he was young, and they blame him for thinking that way.....
he was exposed to such an incident, it's not something that can be easily overcome, and if it happened to the MC, everyone would have been by his side....
so what? Or because he didn't listen when the MC told him that he liked him?
For him, pheromones are a complex just like the title of the manhwa, he was afraid that the MC would rush to judgment because it was his first time, and since he didn't show any sign of his love for the ml...
how do you want him to believe that without any explanation ?
The MC didn't make any effort just because he heard him say that he would give up ...
did he really try to stop him and talk properly and explain why he loves him and why he hid it from him?
No, he didn't, both of them are wrong....
And I really want to understand how you think that the 2ml is better than the ML?
Just in what way is it better ? .....
Am I the only one who finds him annoying, and pushy,
it's clear that the MC won't reciprocate any kind of feelings, and he knew that but he keeps interfering..
I really hate such a character, just imagine meeting someone for the first time and they act in such a rude way....
He interfered with the MC's matter and almost revealed his secret and then the next day he released the pheromones to make sure that he is an omega...
really ? what's good and what's nice about that?
Everyone gave him an excuse and forgot about it, and started blaming the ML for his actions....
It's normal for 2ml to be honest and clear with his feelings...He doesn't know the MC and there's no relationship between them....
He just like someone and wanted to express it simply. Even the reason he liked the MC is ridiculous...
There's no room for comparison...
The two main characters have a long past and unrequited love, so they had a lot of concerns...
That's what caused their hesitation....
So I found his character here annoying..
But that doesn't mean he's a bad person, he has good sides of course.. I like that he's confident, considerate and kind to those who care about them ...
Maybe if they made him a friend without such feelings, it would be better. ....
However, in my opinion, there is nothing that makes him better than the ML..
Anyway, after resolving the misunderstanding, the story is really cute...
Seson 2 has just started but with this?
A kiss with the prosecutor? Then getting drunk and calling the prosecutor in a closed place?
And this right after hearing everything that happened to ML and that he was thinking about you all these years?
What is this? Was this the kind of story? Did you call the prosecutor while drunk and you know he's interested in you? What is this so you want to sleep with him...( This is what will happen in the next chapter)...
Wow I really feel so bad for ML ...
he's in danger and fighting alone and he's willing to do anything to protect MC even after MC knows about his situation...
Look what he's doing, damn I better leave
Well, maybe many won't agree with me on this
But after chapter 88 (the rape), I didn't enjoy the story at all, and unfortunately when I start something I have to finish it
Even if it was annoying, I couldn't drop it , so I reluctantly continued reading, if it wasn't for this chapter, this would have been one of the best manhwas for me...
Because if the existence of this chapter would have made any difference even if it was simple, I wouldn't have been so annoyed, but really there was no benefit or any necessity or anything that could serve the content,
so the reason for its existence is only because the author wanted to draw something like this (something disgusting and not only that, but he made it detailed and in front of his beloved's eyes)
I tried to convince myself that they were the same person, but this was unfortunately not useful, this was just rape by a different bastard one
And the truth is when I see something like this I lose respect for the author ..
Because while you are with the main characters all these chapters and suddenly something like this happens without necessity, then it is quickly overlooked ..
So even in the side story , Introducing that bastard as an uncle, taking care of the children, wasn't comfortable, just seeing him was annoying....
Even with the side couples tied together, the two top sleep together, I didn't find it funny or comfortable, I don't know ... Even though it was what if
I think the author wanted all the characters to have intimate moments with each other...
Anyway
Maybe my reaction seems exaggerated
Because I really hate this kind of thing so much, and I don't like seeing it ..
And maybe because I had hope in the author because everyone was recommending the manhwa, I didn't expect them to put something disgusting like this.
This reminds me of ' The Devil's Temptation manhwa'
It was funny and good, but it completely collapsed after one chapter, even the same ch number 88
So I really hope to give up this bad habit and stop reading things that bother me...
In the end, this is just my opinion...
maybe some people find it okay, or they just forgot about it, but I just couldn't ...
Am I the only one who wishes they would break up
being together is just toxic and hurtful..
the story keeps going in circles over and over again, no use and not only that but there is rape now, it's getting boring and disgusting....
I just wish they would go their separate ways and break up....
the ml always feels helpless and inadequate, I guess loving someone for 10 years and seeing them sleep with all kinds of people (I know the mc is forced)
but watching someone you love do that for all those years is tiring and waiting for them without loving or sleeping with anyone else is incomprehensible, and now he's trying to change himself for him, this is not good, he needs to stop ..
and the mc should let him go now...
He would be better off with the white head at least he won't get raped like this and his dirty grandfather will stop bothering him...
After the happy ending...
why am I not happy?!
Maybe because of the amount of pain and suffering that the seme went through to get to this point..
it makes me feel bad, I just wish that the seme would end up with someone else...
if only he could try loving someone else, and forget about uke who broke his heart and made him cry over and over again...
really why did he have to go through all of this, it's not like uke is a special person or has a good personality, or anything ... so why
what a waste ...