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Maybe it’s because I’m on break but I be feeling very sad, and it’s hard to express that sadness like who tf wants to listen to me rant irl? Thank god I have internet, so felling very sad but I can’t cry? Why can’t I cry? Why don’t I feel anything? why does it feel like there’s a hole in my heart? My does it hurt? Why am I scared of who I’ll be of it stops hurting? Why does it hurt so comfortably? Why am I going numb to all the bad things going in life? Why is bl the only thing that makes me happy? Why is living life getting harder each day? Why can’t I be normal? Where did I go wrong? Why do I try so hard even though I know it won’t last? Why do I still have hope?…
It’s better to not think..
Maybe I’ll read some more bl to feel happy..
But for how long? Let see how long I can survive idk anymore..