I'd say you're actually motivated by loneliness and needing to fill the void in your life. BUT I'm no psychiatrist, so sure maybe it's curiosity.
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List here mainly consists of mangas with
Yandere -uke/seme
seme/uke who are overly possessive -
 Yandere -- A character who is genuinely kind, loving, gentle, 
but suddenly switching to being aggressive or deranged. 
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- Author: Zusiha,Yepbee
 - Genres: Comedy / Fantasy / Josei / Mystery / Romance / Webtoons
 
						shounen-ai ver. 
https://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/1460014/
- High 
(Rating:  3.5- 5)
May include heavy words and acts
- Mild 
(Rating: >2-3.4) 
May Include heavy words and threats but did not commit them 
- Low
May Include claiming words (you're mine) and jealousy
(Rating 1-2) 
Spicy level(how intense the seg scene is) 
High
Mild
Low/vanila
Others
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