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Do you guys ever subtly try to bring up your birthday is soon whenever it comes around bc you dont expect people to remember but also want them to know bc you'll feel alittle bit sad if they remember other people's birthdays but not yours, esp cause you view them as close friends even tho they provably dont consider you the same

I really am a boring person, aswell as quiet and awkward. I dont really go outside often besides for school. My friends don't like what i like (Bl, manhwas, manhuas) while we do have some interests in common like playing some of the same games, watching some of the same animes and shows, there's not alot else.

I dont know how to start a conversation if I dont really have anything to say majority of the time. I know you need to keep talking to each other to maintain a degree of friendship. I dont really have any close friends anymore. I cant talk to people everyday, ill talk to them if I come up with something to talk about or if they talk to me first and I'll just listen to them talk to me about their interests, ill ask questions even if im not interested and (hopefully) look engaged in what they are saying. I'll maybe dm someone once a month if I get into a show or something which they like but other than that I dont get any dms nor do I dm anyone else.
Im just wondering if anyone would have any advice for me, I know its dumb to ask this on a reading website but I genuinely dont know where else to go.

My friends are like huge shit talkers, mostly for valid shit but there's like this one friend which gets pissy over a lot of small stuff lately, its not often but its often enough that it makes me think of everything I say or do is pissing them off and its horrible. She has said she has been off her meds and I feel like that might be why.
Its not like I can say anything either because they are like my bestfriend and I really want to keep this friendship because we've been friends for years and I really love being her friend, but sometimes it just feels like I have to censor myself around them?

Like I was asking another friend about what bls she reads because I learnt she read some and idk if she was joking or not (she struggles with tone) but she went 'really?' and I felt shitty because maybe I was interrupting her or something. She doesn't mind that I read bl that I know of.

She's a really great friend otherwise but like idk how to stop feeling like this or how to bring it up without feeling like I'm attacking her for it.

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