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If anyone knows about this stuff or has an opinion pls help me.
I don’t understand why but I genuinely haven’t been able to correspond anyone’s love since like elementary/middle school. Now I’m just starting college and anytime someone likes me I just have this weird pitch feeling and I feel highkey uncomfortable around them. Even if IIII was the one to like them first. Another important thing is that I also genuinely have been feeling desperate to be in a relationship since I’m grown, I feel like I’m missing out on something beautiful that I see a lot of people have and wish to experience. My point is, even when I’m the one that liked the other person first, and fantasize about being in a cute relationship, whenever I’m facing a real opportunity I just can’t, for the life of me, take it. And like it’s not subconscious (I think) that I’m just afraid and I hide it by saying no or smth like that, whenever I feel any reciprocation I physically and emotionally stop feeling attracted, I just start feeling extremely awkward…
Sorry if that’s too extensive but the reason I’m asking 4 help is cause I’m starting to like someone and I truthfully have my hopes high this time so I’d like to work in myself and improve to be able to be in a relationship w someone and be a good partner
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PLEASE AND THANK U