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Im sorry what is so confusing about this story? I get that she didnt owe him anything, but that doesnt mean she cant feel bad for him??? Look, this story isnt black and white. Both of them have reasons for doing things to each other and hated/feared each other because of it. But both of them didnt deserve what had happened and THEY realize that. Thats why the fl cries for the ml, and why the ml swears that all he will ever do is to protect her and wont ever think more than that.
What they went through is traumatizing af, Im not gonna argue that. But despite that they loved each other because they learned that the other person was so much more than what they were branded as. The fl learned that his grief and trauma blinded his actions, while the ml learned that she did not deserve getting killed because of it. And once the fl learned of the ml's trauma and how she indirectly caused it to happen again and again she felt like she owed him even when she didn't! Because guess what!! She loves him and she couldnt bear thinking that she had indirecty caused him harm over and over again. When in fact, she was suppperrrr paranoid of him getting hurt all this time. That doesnt mean its the right way of thinking no, but she cares for him and would never hurt him. And right now thats all she could focus on. It might be crazy stockholm syndrome to some of you that she learned to symphatize with her murderer but she understands that this was only born out of circumstance, circumstances that she could prevent. Because the ml as it turns out, wasnt a fucking psycho!! Thats why she preffered him over that count with black hair because he had a sick personality, unlike the ml.
The Ml also, it doesnt take jackshit to know that killing a person is the worst offense you could do to anyone. Much less to someone who was completely innocent. But Im sorry, he was completely mentally unstable from the grief and trauma her family caused and from fighting the evil deity that he went off to kill them right after the demon and THEN kill himself after. Which he btw couldnt do bcs he kept turning back time. I would be pissed as FUCK if i wanted to die and I couldnt do it. But Not until he got to spend time to properly heal from grief with the fl, did he finally manage to realize that he was wrong. Did he ever experience that before? No! he died, and woke up with an 18yr old body fresh from grief and hatred from when he was 10. he met the fl, he realized all the jackshit he's done when he wasnt right in the head, and he couldnt forgive himself to ever doing that to her. Thats why he swore, he swore that he would protect the only person who over helped him in this life, moving past all that hatred he had in those 7 lives. Because like i said, he fell in love THEY fell in love and he wasnt some psycho with a sick personality to ever hurt the fl again.
And that brings us to the awkward phase. She's vindicated her family and He saved her life and kept her from harm all this time. But both cant go past what they did to each other indirectly or directly. Whether or not its true, they think they are each other's perpetrators. The guilt haunts them and stops them from accepting each other and I am PISSED that this comment section isnt filled with frustration of them not being a couple yet