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i thought i had a high tolerance with toxicity cuz I've read Red Mansion without batting an eye, and i saw that someone said this was toxic, but not toxic enough so i thought, im running out of stories to read! might as well. oh boy was i so wrong... this made me cry so much for 10 minutes dafuk??? i haven't cried since February. that scene in which adele was in a masquerade thing, in which this bastard buenaparte brought her to... literally, my heart ached so bad and i silent cried cuz it's fucking late in the night?!?!! right?! silent crying added the hurt that i feel in my heart, the grudge, and the hate i have for this boy. (i refuse to call him a man, he's so fucking childish) this bastard is so terrible i can't forgive him forever for what he did. i refuse to acknowledge this boy as the male lead, he's so fucking ugly. his whole being is ugly, I've never hated a character this bad. I've always sympathized with them, knowing their traumas. i dislike his whole being, he's so horrible i couldn't care less with his past, whatever.
just like how he does everything in his fucking power to disgrace, humiliate, and hurt adele, i also want to do that to him. i know it's useless cuz they'll end up together anyway, but i hope before that happens, he thinks back of what he did to adele, how he brought her into that God forsaken place. i hope he regrets so fuxking bad and his past action eats away at him every damn time he is with adele. i don't wish him a happy ending with adele, i hope he suffers so bad. there is no redemption for this boy, for me. although i like adele so much, im reading this bc of her, but I'll be staying away from this story to keep my sanity. i like to guard my heart from heartaches, cuz i read to feel good.
excuse my vulgar language because im filled with fiery rage. my wish is for adele to live happily, or disappear into a bubble on its way to find peace.