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Wow the psychology aspect of this was just so well done, the whole Maria chapter was brilliantly done on both ends aswell as the chokehold Christianity had on Alan, it was portrayed in a way that was like a dark shadow looming over him and distracting his feelings with what he was taught.
Absolutely tragic ending but dare I say in that moment, not entirely the worst decision, they went through a lot and people have different feelings about death, wether it’s selfish or painful, there’s another light or infinite darkness, but sometimes it’s the better choice in people’s minds when something as tragic, as your whole world, who you’ve just met, is dying right in front of you.
I can understand.
Literally anyone, even his straight friend, would’ve been a better ending for this story. Obviously it’s subjective but I have points to make, the obvious huge one for me is just like, he’s had this crush on a guy that in the story has shown like actually zero interest in him at all even after MC confessed finally, and one random fuckass chapter him and his random friend we see twice (il her though) is walking about and she’s like “you like him obviously go tell him or you’ll regret it” blah blah and he’s BLUSHING like she just shattered his entire world like some philosophical guru heck it would’ve had the same effect if you just looked at him and said “you’re gay for him” which she practically did, you realize he never even showed interest before that chapter and were already at 20 chapters left with two other characters present that have ALOT better story presence and interactions with the MC
Im like actually shocked because 3 guys, one you met because you were confused about a crush on a NPC looking guy and your sexuality so you looked for advice online anonymously and found someone that happened to be your age and go to your school then you find him and have a good first funny meeting like you chasing the guy around just trying to talk, they have a meeting spot (roof), they text every night even before the guys fell for MC, had a well paced developing friendship into feelings, shared heart to heart, can really feel seen with each others past experiences, and he’s just overall a good guy like he was aware when he fell for MC he already like someone else so he resisted but still told MC his feelings because unspoken feelings suck so then he got rejected and MC was selfish to ask to be friends because not everyone can do that.
Then we have the childhood friend that you thought rejected you (as kids so not to serious but) and MC even thought he didn’t even really pay attention to him, like he was nothing special, childhood friend moves away yall grow up, you’re in school and a new student, it’s him, pretty normal setup yeah but it’s still better than the guy who doesn’t show any feelings for 50 chapters anyways, find out you actually got him thinking and he didn’t reject you it was just him yk, being young like not everyone thinks about that stuff when you’re so young lol, he apologizes and takes responsibility for what MC said and have a proper response after all those years in quite a cute way (the slide), he then says he wants to get to know MC better, has decent interactions throughout the story not as good as online guy (I’m bad with names) but still good and could’ve developed more maturely.
Then the MC’s crush since the start, doesn’t do literally anything for 50 chapters besides tries to set MC and his female friend up, aswell as rejecting his confession then just like… going on with life letting MC believe he’s getting somewhere and granted he DID but literally when did the story show that as good as the other two. even MC’s orange haired friend makeup argument moment had more emotions and backstory. I’ll refer back to what I said at the start, it was a random chapter where NPC guy and his friend was walking and she just pulled out a damn hypnosis wheel and said “you like the MC” and hes like hell yeah.
then the author puts them all 3 guys against eachother which was inevitable but the MC somehow comes out saying the NPC guy?!? I will say any day Online guy, Childhood friend and even Orange hair straight friend would’ve all had been better ending up with the MC in literally anyway possible, personally I was rooting for online guy but I would’ve been happy with anyone BESIDES NPC guy.
Just such an underbaked relationship truly