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So I saw a lot of people asking for the spoilers... I got it off somewhere else but here you go guys! (This managa really isn't worth reading trust me)
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This novel is not happy ending. This even has detailed rape and torture scenes, heartless characters, cruelty and don’t expect any love more like possession and obsession.

The gist of the story is that there is no major villain. The story revolves around a misunderstanding that impacts MC’s relationship with both MLs. It has majorly just the three characters, the MC and two male leads whose relationship, revenge and actions takes up most of the novel.

MC is a noble who pretended to abandon the ML (khalid) to save him when they were kids. ML was hurt because his whole world was MC. MC did it to save ML from his father who could be said to be a lecherous person. If the mother of MC hadn’t interferred then Khalid wouldn’t have been kicked out so miserably after being whipped. Ecen after thrown out of the estate, khalid tries to reach knox but instead sees knox smiling at another servant and finally concludes that he has been abandones.
MC was the only light in khalid’s miserable life.

Later in adulthood, the MC’s family was killed by the second ML (Peltian) who disposed of the crown prince and became emperor. The MC’s family was supporting the crown prince, that’s why they were killed. However MC was secretly helping the emperor and was under the impression that the emperor knows it’s him who helped him defeat the crown prince. So when his family was killed he was shocked and thought that he was abandoned by the emperor.

Basically the guy who was delivering MC’s messages to the emperor didn’t tell the emperor that they were from MC rather he prentended that it was himself who helped emperor, this way he betrayed the MC and got all the benefits at the end.

Now MC was captured and khalid asked the emperor to give MC to him as a slave so he can take revenge. Khalid and emperor are deeply bonded as brothers so emperor granted him this request.

Now MC thinks he has to repay khalid for the hurt he caused him while abandoning him. He still had the child in his heart. He first tried to obey khalid for whatever abuse he threw his way, knox accepted it all because he wanted to pay back khalid for the pain he caused to the one he loved. That’s why knox doesn’t commit suicide right after his family falls and becomes a slave willingly so that khalid can let go of his resentment and be completely happy.

Now it is very important to note that the 100 chapters in the novel constitute of the abuse knox suffers. This abuss and the thoughts of Khalid and emperor about being happy watching knox suffer tells the readers that this relationship is based on not love but obsession, revenge, and twisted possessiveness.

Khalid badly abuses MC (Knox) physically and sexually.
He and emperor treats him like an object less than a human being. During the first rape scene, khalid thought that he has no intention of making the sex pleasant fpr knox. He wanted knox to hurt. After few days, khalid starts finding knox lovely however he is disgusted by this and tells the emperor about it. The emperor offers to help him with knox’s slave education and khalid agrees. This is where second rape scene comes and once khalid sees knox crying miserably and his face drenched in tears, he thinks that this is the sight he wanted to see. He wanted to treat knox like a being that is lower than human and just a sex slave who couldn’t expect any consideration and must accept everything khalid throws his way.
Emperor tells khalid that this is how he should treat knox because he doesn’t deserve respect. He is just a possession, an object.

The sex scenes are horrible with slapping him to keep him awake, fucking him in turns for the whole night, not letting him rest, teaching him to suck their dick first thing in the morning as slave. It’s horrible letting him ride a wooden horse, use dildos on him and double penetrating him, keeping him tied to bed and fucking him for days even though he begs not to. Calling whore, prostitute, beast and wven saying that knox will cum even if an animal fucks him. Khalid even makes a bet with emperor to see if MC is loyal to him alone and knows who owns him if he doesn’t cum while someone other than Khalid fucks him. Emperor fucks him and MC cums so in anger khalid takes off his belt and hit his perineum and hole with it several times while asking MC to keep his hole open with his own fingers and ask for forgiveness again and again. It’s horrible through and through.

During all this abuse knox understands that he is not being loved nor respected but it still hurts him. Because that child he abandoned in past is still in his heart. He wants to pay back khalid anyway. He wanted to commit suicide but couldn’t because he still has a debt to pay to khalid.

Once MC slaps the belthias guy who betrayed MC and Khalid first slaps him twice in front of that guy for punishment and then further locks MC in a dark room for a week. MC completely loses his mind from that time on and submits his self to slavery. Here khalid has no qualms treating knox badly because that is what he wanted ro do. To make knox miserable and hurt him. He preferred emperor and belthias deron who is now a confidant of emperor over knox. To get knox out of the basement after a week, the emperor says to khalid that a week in solitary confinement is enough and then khalid decides to get knox out. Once he gets knox out and sees knox losing his mind, he thinks that now I’m the only one knox can depend on. This is how everything should be. From that moment on, khalid still abuses knox and rapes but his abuse during rape has significantly lessened because knox now completely gives in to khalid. He abandons his noble self and accepts himself as a slave.

All this abuse and how khalid keeps sharing knox with emperor, one time saying he is the only master but not declining the emperor’s request to let him fuck knox one more time. To get emperor in the punishment knox faces and how knox was now notorious in the whole kingdom as the plaything of emperor and khalid.

Khalid also whips him so bad that knox’s flesh is torn and the head maid stops khalid because she thought if he whipped any more then knox will die. This happened because emperor lied to khalid in jealousy that there was something between knox and emperor after khalid was abandoned. Emperor spent sometime with knox due to his supposed running away incident due to which khalid doesn’t wanna leave knox alone at his estate and leaves him worh emperor to keep an eye on him. He even knows that the emperor can fuck knox but he doesn’t deny the emperor that right and only tells knox to keep in mind that khalid is his master. Emperor after seeing knox’s affectionate side falls for him and wants knox to choose between khalid and emperor. Knox thinks both are same for him but he still has to pay back khalid so he chose khalid.
Khalid after whipping knox then denies him treatment and that is the last point where MC commits suicide because he thinks he has paid back everything because when khalid was abandoned in the past he was also whipped. It wasn’t MC who whipped him but the one whipping MC was khalid.

MC and Khalid both used to love each other in their childhood before the abandonment. But their love and themselves were ruined now. What khalid did was not love, it was hatred and the author even explicitly adds this notion again and again that khalid did all this in anger. He was a mean person who ruined knox. The dialogues, the thoughts they are so degrading for MC by both emperor and khalid that both are not redeemable at all.

The major issue I have with this novel is that the author’s focus is highly on the torture and extensive sex scenes with degradation. However you won’t get much intake on the feelings or thoughts. Now tell me after such elaborate abuse that the author set for the readers and the thoughts of both ML’s about enjoying knox’s misery, can we feel the
Love anywhere? We can’t because there is no love.
After the first night where khalid shared MC with emperor, MC could commit suicide but he on the next day was helping khalid in handling state affairs. He even taught khalid how to dance though by this point he is just behaving like a slave. We don’t get much insight to his mental health by his thoughts other than that he has to pay back so it’s very hard to connect if he has resentment building for khalid due to all this abuse or not.

So basically after MC is whipped, he is in his room where he was unconcious. He wakes up goes out the estate, sees the carriage of belthias and rode it. He talks to belthias and mentions how he betrayed him etc etc. All of his converstaion is being listened by Khalid and emperor through a magic stone that is given to him by khalid and which is like a communication device controlled by Khalid. That’s how they come to know that MC is innocent. MC kills belthias and goes to his home. There he jumps off a window and commits suicide.

Now for the inconsistencies. Khalid hates MC because he abandoned him in childhood. But suddenly he is devastated and acts like he can’t live without MC when MC commits suicide and it comes to light that he was innocent. Khalid’s resentment wasn’t because MC helped crown prince, it was because of abandonment. So even if it comes to light that MC is innocent, how he turned 180 degree?


Then the argue that it’s because MC committed suicide but khalid has been abusing him cruelly for days and days. He whipped him so bad and denied treatment suddenly he is remorseful just because MC commits suicide? I would believe it if I could get an ounce of feeling that he loves MC? He calls MC whore, slut, prostitue. Treats him like one. That is definitely not love. It doesn’t give any feeling of love even to us readers!

Anyhow they somehow save MC. During the process khalid comes to know that MC didn’t abandoned him willingly. It was an act to save him. He even searched for him and was whipped by his mother for this reason so more regret.

After Knox tries to commit suicide and is saved by khalid and the emperor, he first tries to commit suicide multiple times. He is in so much pain that he can’t live but khalid doesn’t let him die. Then the emperor, khalid and everyone else decides to restore Knox’s status and give him back his property and his runaway cousin who is only left from his family.

Since knox can’t die so he decides to take revenge. He does some shenanigans where he somehow convince khalid to help him cut off the emperors closest confidants and betray the emperor. Khalid kills them one by one at the order of Knox. It’s heartbreaking bcz they are completely innocent.

Khalid is in significant pain due to his betrayal to his fellows who were like brothers to him as well as the emperor.

Later when it comes to light that Knox is orchestrating all this, Knox use one of his three pardons (which was granted to him by emperor at the time of reinstating his status) to save himself from any punishment.

At the end, Khalid kills the emperor and decides to kill himself too because he concludes due to some more events (like emperor raping knox again because he thinks that why khalid can stay by his side after abusing knox but not emperor so to leave his existence in knox’s life like a scar he rapes knox again) that as long as emperor and he is alive, Knox will be in pain.

Once the emperor is killed, Knox is left behind as the only royal family member alive (from his mother’s side) to ingerit the throne and becomes the king. He let’s khalid be arrested for the murder of the emperor and let him be tortured brutally for one week. Later when khalid admits in front of everyone that he killed emperor by his own decision that knox pardons khalid from death sentence and thus keeps him as his pet (someone to do his biddings) and calls him “Khalid, my pretty dog) which is in contrast to what he used to call him in childhood (my pretty khalid). Knox was waiting for khalid to betray him and prove that whatever khalid did was not love. However khalid thinks it was love.
Lastly MC, after suffering from khalid and emperor, he also now bore resentment and hate. He kills innocent people for his revenge. He even takes relief in khalid’s suffering. He suffers from the after effects of abuse he faced at the hands of khalid and emperor.
The end of the novel feels very empty with no closure..... It's just a sad ending ngl.

From where should I pick the novel and where to read in English? Pweaseeeeee

Novel links (TW!! Everything…) https://booktoki346.com/novel/3887622?stx=%EC%A0%9C%EB%A1%9C%EC%84%AC&book=%EC%99%84%EA%B2%B0%EC%86%8C%EC%84%A4

Ahhh I read some summary about the novel it has Vol 1 - 3

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From what I had read this will be a love triangle— Ha Joyoon (uke) and his boss (seme) became in good terms. They developed more than senior and junior relationship. Btw, for Taejeong (his ex) he STILL does have a feelings for Joyoon. His current boyfriend is just a replacement for Joyoon in other words the feelings that he had now is just false.

So going back, xD the seme's ex wife came to their office and he saw them in good terms. He doesn't know what he feels but he knows what it's called jealousy. Then there's that he only focused about his work and gave up on love since there's this past love that he needed to fix.

They talked. Then something— chuchu like... It's complicated.

He finally break up with Taejoong and left for America I think? xD not sure if it's America but he left.


Then someone who accompanied him asks of there's someone he wants to visit, then he thinks of Kwon Jo (his boss, the seme) and went to his house. He'd still remember the passcode. If the passcode did not change then the door will open.

Kwon Jo told him that if the passcode did not change means that there's no one in his life.

Anddd when, Joyoon returns. Taejung decided to break up with his current boyfriend.



That's all I've read. (• ▽ •;)

Gonna add them here tehee! https://www.kuaikanmanhua.com/web/topic/8311/

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I read up till Chapter 29 so far so I'm gonna give a half-assed summary from what I can remember lol
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The karma that the uke is "suffering" in this timeline is from what the Past Emperor did in reaction to him

In the past, the uke would be openly defiant towards how psychotically possessive the Emperor is.
Eg. He cut his hair because the emperor mentioned how much he loves his hair and it belongs to him, which lead the Emperor killing all the maids who is supposed to take care of the uke

He starts shooting birds that they released, telling the uke that he can never fly away, wherever he runs off, he'll definitely capture him

When the uke tried to run away, the emperor broke his legs saying that it's his.

He kills off his consorts etcetc

Also there's this wine that the Emperor would give the uke, which causes him to "go into heat"(idk how to describe but you know lolol)
Although it is also like a poison, the emperor still forces the uke to drink it every night because that's the only time the uke would say that he loves the emperor

Eventually the uke gets addicted to it, and goes crazy trying to get everyone to have sex with him which causes the Emperor to go into another massacre

The Emperor realises how addicted the uke is to this "poison" and how insane he became and cried

Later on, the uke commits suicide, and the emperor says that line at the beginning where he will find him no matter what

The emperor also just kills anyone and everyone to gather up the bad karma points so that he'll be rebirthed to find the uke again

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In the current timeline,

The Emperor ain't no saint either. He still has psychotic tendencies and won't hesitate to kill (duh) consciously but the uke will try and save them

The Green guy knows about the past because of records that he read before and he talks to the uke, to tell him to just go along with it, thinking that the seme would kill the uke the next day like he did the women

But the uke didn't want to have anything to do with the seme and just escapes but fails. The seme was surprised to know that the uke knows about using that path to escape.

Later on, someone that tries to assassinate the Uke by poisoning him which causes the seme to go insane and orders for the people responsible for taking care of the uke to be executed.

This is a repeat of what happened in the previous lifetime, when the uke cut his hair and his attendants got executed so he runs to the seme and offers up his hair. Saying that all of his hair, he'll give to the seme. It will belong to the seme

The seme thinks that it's funny that the uke thinks that his hair is special but he spares them

He dismisses that green guy knowing that he was the instigator.

Later on, the crown prince would be talked into pulling the uke's hair by a bitch(the consort) and the uke's attendant would try and stop the crown prince but the bitch is all like "how dare you touch the crown prince blahblah" and was going to punish him, but the uke protects her by saying that his hair belongs to the seme, he doesn't have long to live anyways, and is not trying to win the seme's affections. He just doesn't want to see anyone get hurt or die because of him. The bitch retreats and says that she'll verify it herself

The crown prince (he's 5) presents the hair he pulled off to the seme who chokes that kid and asked him who taught him to do that. He also guessed as much its that bitch cuz she tried to poison him previously. He asks his subordinates to find a big and fierce wild dog. The crown prince tells the seme that he just wanted to present him a gift cuz he heard that it's very precious to the seme and the seme asks him who told him that it's precious. The kid says that the uke told him
The seme affirms that answer saying that it is indeed very precious

The seme visits the uke, and when the seme mentions about his hair, the uke freaks out thinking he chopped off the kid's head. The seme said that when he let off the people previously because the uke begged him he was already seen as a joke

He tries to kiss the uke which the uke rejects. The seme tells the uke to protect his hair because it belongs to him

Then he tells the uke that he ordered for a wild dog to be released into the back Palace and see if the people there will turn into dog food the next day

The uke panics and tell him to not do it. The seme asks him, what he'll offer him in return this time. He asks for his legs, which the uke has a flashback when the seme breaks his leg because it's his. The uke panics, and the seme tells him to properly cherish them, because it belongs to him.
The uke refuses to believe that the seme knows what cherishing means and that this is all a front and its a lie.

The dogs gets along with the crown prince and the crown prince gives the uke sweets that promotes hair growth as thanks lol

// im getting lazy..so I just say the things I remember

That wine, he forces the uke to drink it saying that he will sleep with him tonight
The uke reacts adversely because he has some sort of trauma to that wine
After drinking it, the uke tries to fight off the seme and he says that he knows what that "wine" is. The uke takes the shard (from the shattered wine bottle) and cuts himself. The seme stops him and tells him if he really hates him, just use that shard and cut the seme instead.
The uke "goes into heat" and the seme starts having pieces of memory rush into his head. He doesn't know that it's his memories yet but he stops and covers up the uke and leaves.

The green guy then gives the seme the record book and tells him about it. The seme realises that it's his memories is devastated. Because all the atrocities that he had committed, he is repeating them now. (so the uke will hate him) But the green guy tell him that the situation is still salvageable because he's not exactly like the past king.

it goes into flashback while the uke is suffering miserably from that wine poison

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Past timeline (when they first met)

Uke has an older brother that tries to rape him
Uke's older brother blames the uke

Uke meets the Seme and falls for him because the seme entertained his dreams and they work together towards it.

Uke's brother attempts to rape him but the uke runs away. He bumps into the seme who sees his disheveled appearance and wow he suddenly turn psycho

Before this the seme seemed pretty nice lol

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The seme remembers everything and he decides to stop being such a tyrant and thus start his self redemption lol

The uke tries to provoke the seme openly now, to get him to kill him. But the seme allows him to just hit him.

Later on the seme tells him that whatever he does its ok but just don't leave him because it will repeat again. (uke will rebirth with all his memories and suffer again)

The uke realises that the seme remembers and thinks that he's making a fool out of him

also this whole time the uke has this misconception that the seme just wants to hurt and torture the uke for fun (i wonder why -___-)

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That's all I read so far, sorry that the summary is messy I just spilled what I remember and its so late my brain isnt working :")