i still wanna fuck die all the time man. like it would be deadass so easy for me to overdose on melatonin pills like that.
but I fucking can't. Bcs then I know my grandma would have to burry my body. she already barried my dad. how would she feel if she buried her grandchild? she still sees me as a little child.
I'm scared tbh. i rlly don't hav......
