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How do I even start with the spoilers for this one. Also, it's been awhile since I've finished reading the novel so I don't remember a the details.

1. Evelyn is a fake saintess. As for her motive, she's actually just a commoner (and an orphan) who went to the capital and saw the empress and thought to herself that if she was the empress, everyone would love her and she would have everything she ever wanted.

2. How did she become a "fake" saintess?

In both timelines (the first one where the world got destroyed and the current one), it was basically the same thing. She became orphaned and was sort of adopted by Selene (Empress' maid) and her mom. When Selene's mom died, they went to the capital.

In the first timeline, I think the moms death was an accident or a of natural cause (?) but in the second timeline, she deliberately killed the mom and Selene. Selene survived but lost her memories that's how she then met the empress and became her maid.

On the first timeline, Eveleyn found out that Selene was the daughter of a nun and a priest. Yes, the priest in question is the current high priest. The reason they went to the capital was to be closer to Selene's father.

Selene had no plans of telling the priest the truth about her birth but Evelyn thought differently. At this point, Evelyn was sort of at her breaking point. She was being treated like shit because she was poor and a commoner and was exhausted and desperate. So she deviced a plan and stole Selene's identity. (i don't remember what she did to Selene in the first timeline though).

She went to the high priest, introduced herself as his daughter, gave some evidence she stole from Selene, and threatened the high priest to make her the saintess. She thought that if the high priest says that there's a new prophecy and a new saintess, she would become an empress and get everything that she wanted - money, power, love. However, the emperor turned his back on the prophecy and declared he would only ever be with Anastasia.

This part is based on the first timeline. Evelyn threatened the high priest to use dark magic to summon a demon. She mad a Contract with the demon and asked it to threaten the empire in hopes that in doing so, the people wod pressure the emperor to marry her. But again, in the first timeline, the emperor instead went to war to protect his empire and died, empress committed suicide, and the people threw a coup and decided they would kill all the priests and the saintess. The people believe the goddess turned her back on them so why should they continue to worship a goddess that is killing them?

Well, Evelyn now admits she fucked up. She then told the demon that if given the chance to do everything again, she was confident she would succeed in becoming empress.

And that is how we get to the second timeline - the current one.

In the current one she changed a few things. She took on a more active role to try and ruin the empress. Remember the sister-in-law and the Empress' friend? She also blackmailed Count Hazel so that he would adopt her. And then, to make her validity as saintess stronger, she had the demon or the high priest, remove the saintess mark on Anastasia. She then used an artifact that would channel the priests divine power to her- this is how she is able to use divine power. And this is why people easily believed she was the saintess and the reason why Anastasia also believed she was the real one.

3. How is she exposed as a fake?

After Anastasia leaves the empire, she goes to live in a very remote town. Not sure how, but I think it's a combination of her praying to the goddess and also being far from the capital that made the saintess tattoo/mark reappear. She also heard the goddess' voice when she was praying (i think) and so she then realized that no, I'm not a fake, I'm actually the real saintess. So she goes back to the capital to try and expose everything.

She was away for quite sometime, I think it was a few weeks to a few months. All this time, emperor was being pressured to marry the saintess and fill the empress' empty seat but my boi was UNMOVING.

When Anastasia came back, she had a very emotional reunion with the emperor. They then basically told each other that they both heard the goddess' voice and believes that Evelyn is a fake.

In the coming days, Anastasia confronted the high priest. The high priest, feeling guilty and also knowing he had nowhere to go, decided to confess to everything. He was going to talk with the Empress. However, Evelyn found him first. They had a huge confrontation and Evelyn killed him. The empress was then framed for the high priests death. Evelyn thought this was a good thing, now the high priest was dead (no one will know their connection or know that the prophecy is fake) and everyone would probably assume the empress killed him since she would have a motive. However, most people believed the empress wouldn't be dumb enough to kill the high priest knowing she would be the first to be suspected.

After the high priests death, it was Count Hazel who was pressure to confess about everything. The emperor also was able to uncover information about the nun the high priest got pregnant. He knew about the fire that would caused the death of the nun and the child. They believed that Evelyn was not only a fake saintess but also that she was most likely not even the daughter of the high priest.

Evelyn then got a bit reckless and made some dumb decisions that ruined her good image.
That, coupled with Count Hazel's testimony that Evelyn blackmailed him and that before the debutant ball, the maids never saw the goddess mark on Evelyn's skin, and then the urging of the emperor and empress to try and purify Evelyn because they were suspicious that she was contracted with a demon - was the reason everyone found out that everything was just a lie.

Overall, a nice story. If I had one issue, it was never really explained if this was a book (like Anastasia a mentioned) or if she just relived her life a couple of times and the book that she though she read might have been just one of the many timelines. It was never explained why Anastasia was evil before she remembers about the book. What was the book even? If Anastasia is the real saintess, then doesn't that mean the book was wrong? So many questions that were never answered in the end.

I think I missed a few things but I think I've convered most of the major stuff that happens in the later part of the book.

Big bro was living so lowkey nobody knew he was a chaebol

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AWANG AWA NA AKO SA SARILI KO

Hazel is an omega and Ash's first ever serious relationship. They broke up a long time ago because Hazel cheated on Ash and went to chase the other guy- reason why Hazel went to America.

No, they never talked about marriage. And no, they never imprinted. While Ash had strong feelings for him back when they were together it was over the minute the guy cheated. And Ash never thought to marry or imprint him.

The reason the friends thought it was something so serious was because:
1. Ash never went into details about why they broke up
2. Hazel, everytime he was having a hard time would go to Ash. Ash, feeling guilty because he was his first ever serious relationship, couldn't turn hin away when he needed help.
3. This is only implied, but I think Hazel also maybe let on to their friends that Ash and him were more serious than it really was.

Karlyle feels like shit when he hears the friends conversation about imprinting. His biggest worry was that he is an alpha, Ash will never be able to imprint on him or he won't ever be able to really help Ash with his rut as an alpha himself. He also wonders whether Ash loves him more than Hazel. And having thoughts of wanting to be Ash's first- first love, etc.

Not knowing how to tell Ash all his insecurities and worries, he pushes Ash away. Ash tries to talk to him and explain the whole Hazel situation but Karlyle asks him for time. So they don't talk for 2 days.

2nd day, Karlyle goes out to talk to Ash but finds a note from Ash saying he's at work. Karlyle goes to his office and finds Ash with a guy- Hazel.

After seeing them together, all of Karlyle's worries comes flooding back and he starts thinking Ash would be better off with an omega and left without saying anything.

Then as he was leaving the building, he remembers when Ash mentioned that he was the first person he knotted. That gave him a pause because if Ash did love Hazel to the point of imprinting and wanting to marry him, why has he never knotted him? So he decided to go back to Ash's office to hear Ash's explanation.

Karlyle was waiting for the elevator to go down, once it opened Ash and Hazel stepped out.

Ash to Karlyle: Did you come here just to leave? Are you going to misunderstand things again?

He then goes to introduce Lyle to Hazel by calling Lyle the man he loves (づ￣ ³￣)づ

Basically what follows is Ash, pissed, making Hazel admit to Lyle that no, they never talked about marriage and no we never imprinted. Also made sure Lyle knew nothing has been going on and that he hasn't been in contact with Hazel ever since Ash and Lyle met in New York.

Hazel was crying at this point (this bitch
(╬￣皿￣)凸) and he basically thought Ash wasn't serious because why would he be in a serious relationship with an alpha. He really though he had a chance but Ash made sure to confront him and show him that he was serious about Lyle and that he wasn't even in the picture.

So that's how it goes.

Honestly, i hate the friends for the mess they caused. No matter how close friends you are, you have no right to butt into your friends relationship. The fact they couldn't even respect Ash and Lyle's relationship was disgusting. I mean, it was a fucking house warming. They bought a house together. That goes to show how fucking serious they were with each other. Also, they can see how happy Ash is... Why tf would you even ruin a relationship seeing how happy your friend is? Like where is the fucking logic??? But you guys still had the audacity to think it was okay for an ex to show up and ruin shit? Ash needs better friends honestly.... If you can't respect my partner who has been nothing but kind to you, I think I don't want you coming to my house and eating in my dinner table.

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I honestly can't feel an ounce of sympathy fo the king and I am gonna list my reasons why:

1. He may be a victim of circumstance but that is not the only thing that shapes your character. He had a shitty childhood, I get that but so did the Charlotte and she turned out great. See your pst is their and to an extent it influences you but it I think a person has control over how they want the circumstance they are in to influence their character and the way they act. The King, just so happens, to have let it consume him and turn him into this person who has am inferiority complex over a brother who cares for him and loves him.

2. The way he is using his power to control and oppress his siblings. I don't know about yall, but the fact that he has his half-sisters life at the palm of his hands and the fact that he is using her to control his brother does not sit well with me. A sick child, your own sister, and you are using them as a tool for your sick obsession/competition with your brother. So no, he aint good, and even with his past sob story, he is evil.

3. He wanted to take control/possession of Charlottes title and land/power... lets not forget that. The asshole forgot about that shit because he fell in love at first sight with her... but lets not forget that he had motives and was scheming shit against her before he saw how beautiful she is. Might I also add, how shallow it is to fall in love with someone based on their appearance only? I can't even be bothered to sympathize with him. Why should I? What has he done to earn it? He has been a constant creep forcing himself on someone who clearly doesn't care about him... and this sick obsession (i aint calling this shit love) started pnly because of her pretty face. Really? He is that shallow??


So I understand the narrative that he is the way he is because of his past... he went through shit and that molded him into the person that he is. But yall forgot that he is not the only perspn with a sob story here. Every character has had a shitty childhood. He had people who hurt him, but he had a brother who clearly loved him. It was not all dark, he had someone who cared for him. But instead of choosing to be better, be something different from those who hurt him, he chose to be just like them.


Yes, he seems funny. He has friends and people loyal to him. He has good relationships. I guess we've all consumed one-dimensional characters in manhwas that we forget characters are supposed to be dynamic. In real life, just because someone is a bitch, or someone is rude or mean, does not mean they cant have friends, or good qualities. The King is just like that. Yeah he is nice, TO THOSE WHO ARE LOYAL TO HIM, but isn't that the way people are? We are good and we care about those who are on our side, but the difference is in how he acts towards those who he sees as a threat or those who do not follow his rule. He oppressed them and harasses them and that is what makes him a villain.

O do wish he has a change of heart. I don't think it's irreversible or irredeemable. Arthur seems like the type of person who will forgive and he seems to still care for his brother. I do hope they don't repeat history and actually become brothers who cate for each other.

Rereading this because damn it I really love this story. The thing with soulmate stories is that while it is a cute concept the realistic and logical part of me hates the thought of someone being destined to be mine. Like where's the fun in that? I don't like the thought of who i end up falling for being someone elses idea. That's why i like stories like this where they have to fight destiny to be together. There's just something so beautiful ate a couple saying fuck you to fate and falling in love of their own accord. It hurt so much reading this bec I get where Kaoru is coming from. He is such a selfless baby who just wants to do everything for the man he loves but what's great about this is that Hara loves him the same way. I love how Hara never wavered even after he figured out that his red string was attached. I definitely loved seeing how even though fate tried to play cupid for him and that girl, he never, not even once thought of her in a romantic way. And the ring （/TДT)/ the fucking ring got me bawling my eyes out. Like damn it all I knew he loves Kaoru so much but fuuucckkk the rings really just blew any doubts you could have for the guy Kaoru legit oens his heart

I think majority of us feel sad for Seth. He's just one of those second lead that makes you fall in love with him through his endearing ways. I fell for Seth character bec of his clumsy honesty. He always stayed true and honest to his feelings even though a part of me felt his honesty made him too vulnerable and led him to this heartbreak.

In another universe, the second lead would get the guy. But this is bl, and it is predictable, the main character will ALWAYS end up with the male lead.

And in this case, I really want them to end up together. I know Im surprised by my own answer. Why? because honestly, Henry and Sam have dragged their shit thia long they better fucking end up together. Do I like their character? honestly, at this point im not sure. Henry I'm not sure what I feel about more than Sam. Let's stop blaming Sam for all the shit that's going on, we know he was clueless to his romantic feelings (which i still want t smack him for bec HOW CAN U BE BLINS FOR THIS LONG?!?!). When he realized what he felt, he took action in a way. execution? not so good, but hey he was honest and put effort.


Henry... by god is this character pretty complicated. He started off as someone I relate to. He was painted as a martyr in a way, like damn cant believe u were a bestman to the love of ur lifes wedding but u do u bae, and all the heart wrenching shit he has done. really felt sorry for him. understood how important their friendship was for him, and understood why he never made a move. but see here, lets be honest, he never really gave moving on a chance. did he try? i dunno, but when i see henry, i see someone who is stuck loving the same person his whole life, and a part of me can see he doesnt mind it. he puts on this facade, dnt knw if he thinks he's moving on or shit, but that right there is a man who cant let go.


Where was I even going with this rant? So yes. I fucking hate the pain seth has been put through but lets be real, our baby knew it was coming, he signed up for it. did he hope for a better ending? i mean he's human he did, but i think seth knew a HEA was not gonna happen. So whats the best thing to happen? The main couple to talk their shit out, clear every goddamn misunderstansing, kiss, fuck, get together, so they dnt hurt other ppl and bring other ppl nto their shit. and by god get seth a man that will love him for him and shower him with all the love and adoration that he deserves.

This manhwa has depicted diff types of toxicity in a relationship. Joowon and Haesoo had this messed up relationship where they couldn't let go of each other but also couldn't be together. They were also very selfish in their own way only giving in a little bit but mostly protecting their hearts from the mess that was their feelings for each other. We see certain moments where they really brought out the ugly in themselves and that was something the author didn't shy away from. Taku was also toxic in his own right. He went into this because he was curious and wanted to mess with Joowon a little bit so he decided to get close to Haesoo, got curious of the messed up shit that was happening between the two and dived right in, and ultimately fell in love but went about it in his own toxic way- manipulation and being forceful of his emotions.

If you think about it objectively, the manhwa is pretty fascinating because it shows you how love can bring out the ugliest sides to people but also how nothing great can actually come out of it- ex. the mess that was Joowon and Haesoo, and also why Taku can never make Haesoo fall for him. The characters have so much bad in them there is so much room for growth.

I find it disappointing how some readers are so obsessed with their ships that they have gone into this war of this person is toxic while the other is an angel, or this person is toxic and this one isn't, needing to paint someone as evil in order to alleviate the other character. When this could be such a great discussion for what is right and wrong, what can and cannot be done, what is healthy and what is toxic that can be applied to real life situations. Every character in the manhwa needs growth and development because they are messed up.

Honestly I don't care who others ship because that's their right as readers, however the "joowon is toxic, Haesoo is a cheater and a slut, and Taku is the only good one he is the angel" narrative is getting exhausting and frankly dumb. It's disappointing to me that some readers only got that after reading this. How some of you summed up each character into these few words and attached to them definitions that you want that don't do the characters justice. You can feel sorry for a character but you don't need to drag them down. You can love a character without putting them in a pedestal and absolving them of their questionable and toxic traits. I personally like Joowon, does that mean I am blind to his faults? Nope. I actually didn't want him to end up with Haesoo if he didn't straighten his shit out. He was flawed and thank fuck he finally acknowledged it and did something about it. That's the thing though, you can like a character but still acknowledge if they are being an asshole or not.

Also, people might think it's dumb how some of us are fucking tired and ranting about this bs esp since this is just a manhwa but if you actually are in social media and actually follow this manhwa you will know that the author has been hareassed by so many stans that are pissed they didn't get the ending that they want. This to me is too much. You can be disappointed of the outcome but at least be mature enough to respect the author bec frankly yall don't have any right to demand shit from her.

Don't you just love the fact that Joowon's first question was why Haesoo was crying. The thing is, if you love a person your first thought is always whether they are okay, why they are crying because as cringey and sappy as it is, love is selfless.

And Joowon might have had his moments of being an asshole who is shit at communicating but I prefer the way he loved Haesoo especially near the end, how selfless his love was. How he was just happy to let him go and be with someone else, cute himself off his life, if it would make him happy. I like how Joowon gave Haesoo a CHOICE, to choose what was best for him what would make him happy.

Joowon could have easily guilt tripped Haesoo to be with him. Especially with how Joowon's acting career was in the rocks bec of something he did to protect Haesoo in the past. But what sets Joowon apart and, for me, a better male lead is that he didn't use that against Haesoo to manipulate him into being with him. And that is why no matter how much some readers trash Joowon's character and paint him out as some bad guy or how he is toxic and all things bad, I can't for the life of me see him that way.


Anyone who can read without bias and rose tinted glasses can see that Joowon is not what people try to depict him as. And from all of the flawed characters in this book, which in my opinion all of them are, Joowon has shown the best character development of them all.

Kudos to him for his self growth and kudos to him for finally saying he loves Haesoo and another kudos to him for finally getting the person he loves.

1. Stop painting Joowon as the devil incarnate and Taku as this poor angel who got the short end of the stick. All of them had flaws, stop looking at characters through rose-tinted glasses. Joowon was aggressive (manhandling and pushing haesoo at times), selfish and can be trapped in his own head and hus owb feelings not caring about others, and straight up shit at communicating, Haesoo was selfish and preferred lying through his teeth to save his pride and himself than admit his feelings another person who is shit at communicating, Taku has shown that he can be manipulative, lie, and pressure a person for the sole reason that he loves him. Toxic traits? yes. And all of then have it. Get that in your head.

2. If you hate step siblings getting together then this aint for you. Frankly, I don't see what the issue with this is. I don't hate it nor do I like it. If they weren't brought up as siblings as kids, if they weren't conditioned since childhood to see each other as siblings, I don't see why it's an issue. But hey, if that aint for you then don't read it, nobody is forcing you at gun point to read the story and spew hate on it bec it is depicting a trope/dynamic you don't like.

3. Stop hating on Haesoo and saying that he led Taku on. Are we even reading the same manhwa at this point? Or are yall just great at filtering the things you read to support your narrative? Taku has been chasing Haesoo and pressuring him to be in a relationship with him. Yes they used each other for selfish reasons, but I don't see people calling out Taku for that. But I see a lot of people, here and on socmed hating on Haesoo and painting him as someone who used Taku when we can clearly see form the manhwa that it was Taku who pressured Haesoo to give him and them a chance. It was even a 1 month trial period for gods sake... meaning it was obvious that it could end either with them together or them not working out. It's not the writer nor the characters fault you were thinking that was an indication of them being end game.


4. Stop hating on the author and on the story painting it as another story tht glorifies toxic relationships. If that's what you got from this bec your ship didn't sail, that's on you. Don't discredit the whole plot and character development and make it out into some trash story bec you didn't like the ending. This story showed us three flawed characters and how they perceived love, loving someone, and being loved by someone. Yes, it was messed up, and it was definitely a darker read during the first chunk of the story. HOWEVER, it did show us how the characters evolved through out the storyline. We see them grow and develop to who they are now. And although they aren't anywhere near perfect, the author did do a good job of showing their character development and giving them redemption arcs to show us how they have changed and how they have faced their mistakes and taken responsibility for it (esp on Joowon's part).

5. I feel sorry for Taku, HOWEVER, its pretty clear he knew what he was signing up for. He was the one who kept on chasing and pressuring Haesoo. You don't make a person fall in love with you by pressuring them or pushing yourself unto them, esp when they are still clearly not over the person they've loved for more than a decade. Added to that, we all know Haesoo and Joowon has such a messy history and relationship and never got closure. But I do hope he gets his happy ending. Now that he knows what its like to fall in love, I hope he treats his relationships better than he used to and also I hope that whoever he chooses to love the next time around will love him as well bec he does deserve it.

6. All the characters deserve their happy ending, they all deserve to be happy no matter who its with. And that depends on the author not you.

7. It's important to remember that all of you are reading this for free, meaning you arent even helping the creator monetarily by buying her works, the least you can do is be mature enough to drop the story if it aint going the way you want but also not tainting it and painting it in a bad light for those who are just starting to read it. Make the new readers see for themselves and form their own perception of the manhwa by reading it not have them form their perception based on your bias commentaries.

Lastly, if you're throwing the word toxic bec your ship didn't sail then drop the manhwa. Stop being petty. boohoohoo your ship didnt sail, thats the thing with love triangles sweetie, not everyone gets the girl or the guy. We've all experienced that but we thats not a green loght to throw hate on the manhwa or the writer just bec our ship wasnt end game.



damn felt good to get that off bec im so tired of all the hate ive seen from both here and on twitter ╮(￣▽￣)╭