AAAAA+

Has anyone else had an extremely long one-sided love? It's not like I don't date or dont forget this one-sided love for a few months when distracting myself, it just keeps coming back anytime their around. It's like a damn boomerang. I'm starting to think I didn't even like any of the people I've dated previously. I was never my actual self around them and to be honest I just liked the affection they gave me. I wanted to feel special in the way my crush always made me feel but in a more intimate level. Like no matter how much I felt like I sucked as a person, my crush always sought me out and looked for me to the point if showing up at my house daily.They allowed me to show my emotions.They made being angry and sad fun, which sounds crazy but they ways made everything fun. How the hell was I not to fall in love? I just want the right to be beside her in life like we always use to be but that's her husband's place now. I feel like some character from a manga yearning over someone for this long. It's to the point I'm damn near going to write a novel because I don't know how many more years I can just distract myself. We're both women so you can understand why I never pursued her.

A long time ago I read something but I only vaguely remember a single section of it. So it was a typical Isekai or travellings back in time where the main character becomes a child. I think the main girl either had blonde hair or another light color. From what I remember there was a part where she had lost movement in her legs and had to use a wheelchair and met some snooty kid in I think a church. It was in color