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i feel so frustrated that the author poorly developed dan's feelings for jaekyung. from the beginning dan makes it clear that he has a sensitive issue with sexuality due to that incident with his ex professor’s (or boss?) abuse attempt. and jaekyung represents all that violence. dan literally trembled with fear just being near him because of all the violence. and now, the author is using the sexual pleasure that dan has LEARNED to feel as a way to justify transforming his feelings towards jaekyung into love. meanwhile, heesung is there, representing everything dan never had with anyone except his grandmother: giving him gifts, showering him with words of affirmation, and seeming like the type of person willing to take time out of his day to visit someone he cares about. ofc he's way too emotional hahah but he’s still a promise of a loving boyfriend who brings security and comfort. but ofc even though that's everything dan needs and logically would appreciate in someone, he won't fall for him; instead, he'll fall for the guy who embodies all the violence he endured from both professor/boss and those gangsters :) how nice :)