
Every time Abel asks ML to spare a guy that deserves to be killed, I just can’t continue to read with a pacifist mindset, I’ve reached my limit, bye

i don't think abel's been unreasonable so far with the people he's asked to be spared? IIRC he only saved the enemy in the forest (he actually thought karas wanted to kill abel too so asked that both of them be spared, he didn't know who that guy was), the hostages on the ship (he said "idk abt the fake commander guy but the hostages shldnt die"), and the baby.....who's a baby lol

It's not that Abel is a pacifist. I haven't read the manhwa to the latest chapters so I don't know if it's different from the novel, but ML does not care about anyone's life but MC, and even then he doesn't really care if MC is happy as long as he stays with him. It's a product of his upbringing, but he has almost no concept of emotions. He wouldn't even hesitate to kill the people on his side. Abel is just trying to get him to not kill so indiscriminately. ML doesn't just go after evil people, he wouldn't even hesitate to kill a baby because he does not care for human life, and a lot of innocent blood gets spilled in the novel.

If my husband drove me to commit suicide in my previous life, I would be pretty disgusted if I fell in love with him just because I don’t remember all the crap he’s done.

Not really. More like a normal psychological response to abusers who are also providers, and has managed to 'beat' into the abused child the ideology that 'youre not where you are right now if it weren't for me, nobody will *love* you except for me, if you're not going to be useful I will abandon you'
Even BL cannot escape the trope known as contact marriage