Reading this for the first time and Chapter 59 got me crying at 8am, haven't slept the whole day. Absolutely overwhelmed with emotions, MC can't catch a damn break with the only shining light being his brother...personally I think this chapter is probably one of the most raw feeling chapters I've read of any media in a while.
The author did a very good job weaving together moments that shows MC's insecurities in all their ugliness, all while he's trying his best to keep it together and entertain his brother to not worry him.
(Wtf I should have slept hours ago what am I doing here typing an essay LMAO guys I want to like the ML so bad but sometimes abo says no and this is one of those series where I just have to bite the bullet and push through until the end, his redemption arc better be good)