The best way would be to open up to a professional. They will help you to gey better really (although it feels senseless to you at first.) And bask yourself in sunlight, avoid dark places and avoid being alone in the quiet. Those situations just lets your mind wander to your thoughts. Always do the opposite of what you think your suicidal self will......
...where the ml is a cunning guy who always appears kind. Dont mind what kind of character the fl is.
its been so long since i found a manhwa with a well told plot, characters with real depth and development, and magnificent art.
