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I get that he tried to rein it in for years until he's older, but to show him fantasizing on a kid while having sex? Dude, this author's weird.
I'm trying to understand the current time plot, at least it's all consensual. But the backstory is really, really, really, absurd and weird. The author could've made it a fleeting romantic interest or the seme having late realizations or whatsoever. But to fantasize over a kid?! That gave me an ick.