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My dad beat me up with a broom today. He’s hit my mom many times before, and she just cries a little, saying, “sometimes you have to endure things even if you don’t like it.” He cusses and swears at my mom with vile words, and I feel so sad for her. Mind you, he’s unemployed, does nothing but carries my mom with a bike for her job or lifts something heavy if needed. My mom and maternal grandmother do all the housework and even non-housework when required, while he sleeps and does whatever he wants. He’s wasted so much money for nothing, like buying a piano, musical instruments, and going to tailor training to earn money, but his lazy ass never earned anything. When my mom tells him not to waste money because of us, he fights with her, slaps her, and hits her if he gets excessively angry. He claims to believe in God and be a very religious person but does all of this. My mom endures because she “has” to, as here, if you’re abandoned by your husband, society will call you with words, and here she’s afraid of that.With me, he rarely acts sweet but mostly treats me like garbage and is rude because I’m a girl, supposed to do all the housework. Since I’m studying, I can’t do housework much, but he says this is just an excuse. For my brother, he doesn’t even need to wash his clothes or serve his own food because he’s a “boy.” When I point this out, he says I’m acting crazy. Today, he hit me with a broom because I replied back to his rude “gender roles” comments. I was cooking something, stepped away, and it was about to get burnt. I asked why he didn’t stop it from burning while I was away, and he started with his bullshit, saying I’m supposed to do this. I replied, “We all will eat this,” but he said, “Even so, you’ll make it for all of us, it’s your job.” I got angry, replied back, and he hit me many times with a broom. I cried a lot, told him, “You always do this to my mom and now even me,” and his reply was, “Why wouldn’t I?” I’m pissed and don’t know what to do. Writing this here feels like just ranting, but I’m desperate. I hate how my country treats women and how beating women is so easy for them. If you can guess my country, you deserve a medal. If anyone has suggestions, please say so,I don’t know what to do anymore.

I forgot to add, I have vitiligo in my stomach area and am going through medication, applying medicine and showing the area to sunlight, so I can’t even leave home even if I want to. They plan to get me married next year, and I’m terrified of how I’ll be treated by my in-laws as an unemployed woman,likely like a free maid in my country. My mom wouldn’t leave with me even if I tell her, as she also loves her son (my brother), who has anger issues as well. I feel so bad for my mom and myself too. I’m pissed and hopeless,my life is basically fucked up,Thanks for the kind words; I really needed to hear them (个_个)