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ive read this manga at least five times and its still incredible and painful and hard to get through every time. the first time i had to space it out over 6 months because i felt too sick to continue, but man am i glad that i finished it. its truly one of the best mangas ive ever read and im so thankful for koogi for making it :( <3

I stayed up all night to binge read this and I'm not even sure if it was worth it because of the rollercoaster of emotions that I just put myself through???? It's an incredible psychological manga but it was so hard to read at times T-T.

On one hand I feel bad for scarface because he obviously has serious obsessive and attachment issues and needs to get help BUT on the other hand he also kidnapped, tortured, raped, and literally broke the other guy.
And I've just felt bad for main guy the entire time, his life was already pretty shitty and then to make matters worse he gets kidnapped and raped all because of an old high school relationship? Yikes.
Them as kids was kinda cute if you excuse the manipulation, stalker like actions, and constant sex, but that was NINE years ago and their relationship now is veeery different.
Plus it's very obvious that whatever relationship they have going on is purely a result of Stockholm syndrome, what else would keep the main guy from leaving? (Other than pity maybe but I think it's past the point of "I'm staying with you so that you don't kill your self")
Long haired dude always seems like if he doesn't want to be there and acted like a pushover the entire time until when he really mattered the most. By deleting the picture of main guy being tied up he ruined his life even further, even though main guy was happy about it (Stockholm syndrome). By showing the police the picture, main guy and scarface could've finally gotten the help they needed SEPARATELY and scarface might've finally been able to get over main guy.
Honestly I don't mind the dude with the cap because even though he was violent and an vengeful asshole, he was trying to get main guy help at the end.
Finally, I know this is probably an overused comparison, but their relationship kinda reminds me of sangwoo and yoonbums because both of them were mentally insane and couldn't survive without the other. I feel like after everything main guy has been through, he can no longer survive without scarface, and obviously scarface is psychotic.

Well that's my analysis lol thanks for reading ヾ(❀╹◡╹