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#You don’t really have to read#
I’ve just been overwhelmed by a lot of emotions and have been crying for the last few minutes because I just feel like nothing I do is ever good enough. Work, relationship, friendships you name it. I’m one person that believes in God and prayer but I have been feeling like God turns a blind eye a lot on so many things in my life, I don’t even know what I’m doing wrong. I went to school but can’t even secure a job let alone interviews when I apply for one, I do have experience in different fields but I guess that doesn’t matter! I recently just had a myomectomy just a couple of days ago and the healing phase really just hit me when I realized that people that are supposed to be my family and care for me can’t be bothered that much with me… so it’s been a rough couple of days for me emotionally.
I’m in a long distance relationship and my boyfriend is someone that has had a rough upbringing, went through so much struggles most of his twenties but just when he started thinking things are starting to change for the better for him, everything just goes to shit. He’s really depressed because work is not going well(he even be let go any moment), he need to find a new place to stay on short notice and has no one to rely on whatsoever. All these things just had me lose it because we are such good people but live has really not been good to us and we don’t know what we are doing wrong. I was even crying to my sister some time ago because we both felt like we were just stuck in circle of never ending suffering with no end.
Anyway I just wanted to vent to strangers out there because I can’t talk to my family about most of the things that I’m feeling.