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https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/my_reason_to_die/
Well this webtoon is a phycological josei drama. It's not a bl, it's straight romance, but you should give it a chance if you haven't read it, it's definitely one of my faves! If you do, get back to me, I wanna know what you thought of it.
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You're saying that the entire basket of bloody clothes is a "small accident"?

Its his job. What can he do? Separate Love and work life~♡

Im also hoping they are still okay after this i agree its his job hes gotta do it

From what I have seen. He loves her, but more as lustful, Is what I've read, not really entirely sure but I think that's what he feels towards her, he trys to deny his feelings for her, that's why it's "dangerous" and "repressed passion" passion as in lust.

If I remember correctly, it is that he had romantic feelings for her and expressed them by hurting / isolating her? He never really saw her as a sister.
not entirely sure since it's been some time since I've read the novel lmao ┑(￣Д ￣)┍

The other replies are correct! He repressed his lust/romantic feelings for her and often would isolate her to maintain a distance or act cold towards her to deny his feelings! He’s a jackass who took his complicated feelings out on Penelope!

damn, i never thought he would have that kind of feelings towards her. i guess that's why he always have this uncomfy vibe around him!

Penelope was brought in and raised as his sister, but he never truly saw her that way. Instead, he saw her as a woman — something he knew he shouldn’t, so he suppressed his emotions, turning his feelings into what could be described as a "dangerous and suppressed desire." In contrast, Reynold came to love her genuinely as a brother would, so his affection is seen as ''naive and innocent affection."

The difference between the two brothers is so big which makes Derrick even more unlikable.

Dear commenters above me ^.

This is officially my unofficialto you all.

Thank you each for helping me understand Derrick a little better!

Thanks for the explanation, I couldn't understand it from the manhwa clearly. Penelope's reaction makes lots of sense this way

Thanks for the explanation~now I know what's going on. The feelings and stuff. Because in the last panel, derrick face looks so distraught. I was only wondering why he look like this and did penelope do anything to him or did his condition because like this because of the brainwash.


I mean even though I didn't like him at this point of time (even from the very start). I don't want him to die or get hurt.