beta
um, well how to say it..
It feels like portraying my own self, when Lee Jaeha said his ideal type. But unlike Jaeha I don't want everyone's attention but for only one person. I grew up normally (maybe) but you can also say I tried growing up normally, even now I feel like I'm just copying what a normal person would do. When he confessed that I felt like I was being exposed too. I know what his saying is very toxic but in the back of my mind I still want it. While I'm also like Nam Soomin, I want to shower over my partner with all of my attention. I get obsessed so much that I want to question who they hangout with. These two people actually portrayed how I feel. Even with friends I do get obsessed, I'd be mad if they ever stop giving me attention. (I don't tell them and I also don't pester them, however this is how heavy my feelings are)
Might be disturbing to you guys, but don't worry I always keeping myself in check. It's like putting a leash and a mask for myself so people deemed me as abnormal..
I actually CRIED reading this, IDK why even though it's not a sad story. Tbh, it's also the reason I'm reluctant to date. （￣へ￣）