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im frustrated and upset. no, not cuz the mc doesnt wanna be out, but bcuz he lied abt the ml and now put him in a bad situation. lets say the mc decided not to say anything after the first question and the ml says “yes,” that would put mc in a bad situation where he has to “reject” the ml cuz he doesnt wanna come out. if that were the situation, then id be fucking angry at the ml, but that isnt what happened. hell, even the first lie didnt make me mad. him saying that the ml didnt have a crush on him was perfectly fine, a little white lie so he wouldnt have to come out or be put in a bad light. it’s the following lies that makes me hella mad. “he’s seeing a girl” ??????? this lie was completely unnecessary. yk he could have said “no he doesnt have a crush on me” and the ml could have continued on with talking abt some faceless guy he has a crush on, but he didnt. he didnt let his partner handle the situation and now he has to keep this lie going, the lie that hes seeing this girl. THE PROBLEM ISNT ABOUT NOT WANTING TO COME OUT. THE PROBLEM IS ABOUT HOW THE MC LIED ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE AND NOW THAT SOMEONE HAS TO KEEP LYING TO HIS OWN FRIENDS, PEOPLE HE SHOULD TRUST AND NOT LIE TO CUZ IT WOULD HURT THEM. also, i am not straight nor privileged. i am a pansexual transman who was in a same-sex relationship for two fucking years. i know what its like to have to hide your identity from everyone u know, and it sucks, but when u make a lie for someone despite yall not talking abt it beforehand, then itll only hurt that person. the mc should be thankful he has such a loving and devoted partner who can easily blow past what happened. and i havent even started talking abt bros lack of communication :// dont get me wrong, i love this story, but that doesnt mean i cant be frustrated when the characters make dumb decisions. honestly, theres just a huge lack of trust from the mc to the ml, obviously due to terrible anxiety which is just sad and i hope it gets better as time passes
Maybe this is a hot take but I honestly see the secretary guy to be selfish. He harbored feelings for ceo guy for 10 years, giving up on his love from the very beginning because he knows that ceo had already fallen in love way before that, and now he just up and left. I understand wanting to cut ties to “free” yourself from the pain of an unrequited love, but bro. Do not forget that he viewed you as his closest friend. While you’ve been suffering with these feelings, ceo guy has been forming such strong attachments to you in the form of friendship. Not only that, but he trusts you so much that he relies on you for work and for his personal life, like his feelings or whatever. He doesn’t make you do everything simply because he thinks you’ll simply do it or that he, himself, cannot do it, but because he trusts you to do it. And if you didn’t want to confess your feelings out of fear of risking the friendship, then why did you just throw the entire relationship away? It begs the question of whether you actually treasured the friendship or not. Did you really treasure him or did you just chalk him up to someone you “loved” and could just leave to save yourself. Not only this stuff, but you also already decided shit for him. Yeah he was in love with someone else, but you didn’t even give him an inkling to your feelings. People here may say that ceo guy didn’t care, but I hugely disagree. Like what he said in the most recent chapter, he never asked because he just expected secretary guy to say something at some point. Why? Because he TRUSTS HIM. It’s like when you know your friend is queer despite them not coming out yet, but you keep that knowledge to yourself and TRUST that they will come out to you when they are ready. He simply did what he always did and trusted the secretary guy to come to him whenever he’d be comfortable. And also, if I were to find out that my friend of over 10 years was in love with me the entire time, I would NEED to have a CONVERSATION. Like genuinely what the hell. You weren’t the only person in this friendship. You owe it to him to at least talk if you were planning to leave, just like any relationship, whether familial, platonic, or romantic. The point is that it’s a relationship between TWO PEOPLE, not just one person to make every single decision.
This isn’t even everything I wanna say, but this is all I will say because girl don’t even.
I mean in his defense, if they were just friends, this would have been okay. He's moving on with his career and that is natural. He is not without fault as he himself did not set boundaries but the CEO friend did also abuse that friendship and work relationship by not setting those boundaries as well. The CEO friend has always been taking, if he tried to see things outside his bubble, maybe he would have noticed things and connect some hints. He is only doing it now because the comfort he has been abusing just got lost.
It may be viewed as selfishness but it can also be called self preservation and/or self respect.
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Oh yeah absolutely. Both characters have a part to play in their current situation, it’s just that I’m seeing a lot of people saying ceo guy deserved it n all while 100% defending secretary guy. I don’t believe that something is always wholly one person’s fault. I agree that ceo dude was def abusing secretary not placing boundaries at all, even if he didn’t realize it. And yeah I absolutely view secretary’s decision as self preservation. I mean no one wants to go through living the pain of having an unrequited love for their whole life… that’s just miserable. I just felt that, for how close they are, they kinda owe it to each other to explain their feelings, even if it is painful. If y’all end up separating because of it, then it is what it is, and if y’all don’t, then you become better from it.