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Honestly, I don't dislike either of them for this. I do think it's ridiculous to be faulting blondie when literally how was he supposed to know seojoon had a crush on him? He's been his friend for 12 years, he had a crush on his childhood friend, and Seojoon was even helping him out with that. He didn't think of him romantically consciously because
1) he was convinced he had a crush on his childhood friend (and our mc)
2) he was under the impression seojoon thinks of him as a friend
3) seojoon is helping him in his romantic endeavors
4) there has been no hints towards anything different in their relationship
Some people (like me) have their minds literally and consciously block out such possibilities when they are deemed unwanted. You're incapable of going to the "what if" realm because nth hinted towards it and if so there's no reason to entertain the idea at all. The thought simply never comes, unless promoted.
So faulting blondie for this is ridiculous when the reason blondie never tried to process his attachment to Seojoon beyond friendship is the same reason why Seojoon never confessed or hinted: both wanted to maintain this close friendship because it fills their heart. Had Seojoon hinted early on and at the start, this could've been done with (either with rejection or acceptance) but choosing to hide it and act neutral and even help him in his romantic life then blame him for never taking that initial step and closing the gap? Diabolical. What has he been doing for that step anyway except pining in silence?
Also why is everyone so hard on blondie and how he needs more time? Yes he needs more than 12 years cause those 12 years were 12 years of friendship without any hint of anything more from Seojoon either and, as I said, if his mind deems it a fruitless useless thought he'll just never cross that territory even with a thought. Breaching it would mean inviting more unwanted and unsolicited thoughts that could threaten their friendship. Those 2 months are 2 months thinking from a different perspective and finally allowing himself to process the attachment he has for him without the desperation of being unable to reach or find him. It sounds reasonable and that's honestly what he's owed for suddenly being given an ultimatum without any prior hints or notices then ghosted after 12 years of presumed friendship.
On the other hand I understand Seojoon's pain and how the extra time is cruel from his pov, and how he might feel hurt with a touch of entitlement to his own emotions and what their relationship means based on his own hurt feelings. He's scarred, yes, and very hurt, so I get why he'd lash out like that and say 12 years and you never once closed that gap, but i hope he realizes that for 12 years he never closed it either. Having feelings for a secret crush on someone doesn't give you the right to start testing them in an imaginary trial that they have no idea about.
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