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this is one of the best psychological thriller stories i’ve read in a very, very long time. what makes it so special is the artist’s incredible way of storytelling. we watch the main character slowly spiral into madness — his train of thought becomes nearly nonsensical, yet we still get this unfiltered stream of consciousness that perfectly shows his deteriorating mental state. as a reader, you feel confused, but in a way that still lets you understand where he’s coming from.
what i really love about this story is that both characters are insane — and insane for each other. usually in stories like this, one character is more unhinged than the other, but here, they’re equally crazy and completely embrace it. they are genuinely perfect for each other.
the male lead’s shift in perception is one of my favorite parts. we watch him fall in love with the main character and become obsessed with having him. his love stems from the fact that the main character accepts him for exactly who he is — something he’s never had before. everyone in his life either died or was paid off to stay away from him, so the idea of someone literally stalking him feels ideal to him.
their dynamic is fascinating. they match each other’s “freak” perfectly. when they first became intimate, the main character gave the male lead head and said it was fine if the male lead threw up on him. by the final episode, the roles reverse — now the male lead is the one doing it and saying it’s fine if the main character throws up on him.
that reversal is made even better by the reveal that the main character has been faking memory loss to keep the male lead happy and close to him. so while it seems like the male lead has the main character in his grasp, it’s actually under false pretenses — the main character is in control in his own way.
overall, this is such an insanely well-done psychological thriller. it’s dark, twisted, and has very adult themes, but everything is executed masterfully. huge props to the author — this was amazing.