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If my 20 year old self read this, I might be jumping with joy with all the violence and complexity but not as much joy when you are 30 and experiencing violence. I do love the complexity of the way they trying to love each other but the violence, be it physical or mental, that was acted to Gyeonwoo sometimes just so unbearable. Because Gyeonwoo will excuse all the behaviour as a form of liking, or something he had to do to prevent the balance tip off. Although everything ends well I dont really appreciate the violent scene they imposed to gyeonwoo when discovering themself. Both Jin and Ido

I have a temper similar to Jaekyung where i get angry and explosive but not abuse(none that I aware of) and I am changing but when the only emotion you know is anger.. its hard to change that. It takes me a lot of crying and resenting myself because i couldn’t handle my temper and often exlode to the people I love. I did not explode to strangers but I get super defensive around colleagues and acquaintances.

Have I change for the better since I acknowledge this 4 years ago? Yes and no because change doesn’t take a minute or a day or two. Its a constant regression and advancing only yo regress back to the habit because for me its normal.

I am not defending Jaekyung (i dont follow jinx too much). But i think the portrayal of him changing is a realistic at this point of story.