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I always say: if you don’t value yourself first, no one will value you either. You are allowed to be selfish for your own good and it’s not always about what you want, but what you need. You want the guy cause you love him but he couldn’t care less about you if not for money. Do you really need to lose and exhaust yourself over him? Is he really that worth it? Or will it just emotionally wreck you on the long run? If you don’t know then go on for a few days, and ask yourself: are you happy? Would you recommend this lifestyle to anyone else? Even if you really want that, without lying to yourself, are you more happy than hurt?