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Woowon has always managed on his own and every traumatic thing he’s experienced, he’s brushed off. Now that he’s in a warm and safe environment with someone he can depend on and has been depending on, he can’t just brush it off anymore. I’m sure he doesn’t really understand that how he lived before is why he’s struggling so much now. To borrow words from Sakura-kun, If you’ve lived your whole life on a tight rope where falling off equals death and every step hurts, then taking a step off feels like dying even if that step off leads you to a better and safer and happier life. Seoan is now his plush grassy ground but he’s still coming to terms with the fact that the floor will not open up and kill him. Therapy can’t exactly teach you how to depend on others. This is something he needs to figure out on his own. Therapy can help with his grief and talking through his trauma but as someone who went to therapy for cptsd (the type he has rn), I can tell you that the thing that helped me most wasn’t a shrink telling me to “imagine each thought is a bus and I can decide which bus I can get on” but rather someone caring for me and making me feel safe and secure in their presence to the point that I felt comfortable working through my trauma on my own with them as support. I’m not 100% healed but I’m to the point where I’m not getting flashbacks or scared by the tiniest of things.
Disclaimer: I do think therapy is important and if you are struggling with mental health, please seek out a medical professional. Do not try to DIY therapy without a licensed therapist discharging you.