I keep reading this one for there's a common saying where I live, "I keep reading/watching this to see how much worse the author can do with this already horrible thing, to the bewildered amusement that keeps the gamble of old tricks or a new one feeling."
To put a broken home past to get the sympathy when the guy is having a spree of good behavior and just blaming the aggressive, the forced sex, the buying of a vulnerable person with his only family at the stake to use him as f hole or the constant verbal, physical, emotional rabbid avid dog goes every time.
There's a fact that broken homes does leave huge traumas and the physical abuse is way more common than you imagine, and guess what? Feeling the punches on your skin and how much words hurts as much as a fist makes it an link of empathy.
People who grow up constantly choosing to be the pain they felt on their own flesh and soul are not pitiable patting saying therapy and tears for their childhood of pains is a allowance of this aggression to be acceptable as long as there's an excuse when it should be the skull flag of get away for this person is a grown up adult and no one needs therapy to say "pain hurts, cornering a person using their dying family founds to buy his body to the constant silencing of the courage to ask to not hurt when using his body as relief to yours, that's a sociopath choice of action for they do not care for the other human being and only when loosing the toy he throw a tantrum and then pity the past of the pains he felt and then proceeded on choosing to be the agressor apprentice and not the human traumatized from the aggression has it's division."
To see how easily people changed their rebuke on the predicted "childhood trauma excuse" and have the majority of comments crying over the past of just in the own manga the granny took care of 7 children at once and even more, the one he named ruthless is the main character and this is a very real danger this author used to pull her comic out of the trash is alarming how people reaction changes on the first bad script to me was "The sexual pleasure generates a strong pain relief to before match, sex to endure the pain to fight is stupidity of endless violence cycle to name it a jinx is just pathetic but that's the worst excuse I can think of". To the author, congratulations for the few bad scripts horrors that set the "This is worse than bad, this is putting danger as love story to save the main character you could easily make a reality changer to draw doc Dan going away and finding a new person to end his cycle of apathy to pain would be brilliant to a real problem showing a way out, this is just disgusting saying that love the punches and forced sex is okay as long as there's a greater force than the growth adult choice to hurt someone is always set on on everything else but the man who are agressor and not lovers.
I do like how the author got two different traumas and shows 2 different types of reaction on 4 characters.
While Shahid and Kinard lost all they treasured, from people to their own country, Alvin and Yesing got rooted out of their childhood security to strangers, they dealt with it on two ways.
While Kinard, instead of stopping on the mental state Alvin is, loosing everyone he loved, instead of fearing and backing away, he choose to love him, the way he is, no why's, when's ifs, he just decided to wholeheartedly love every single part of Alvin, watching him recover I'm great joy.
Alvin, who was conditioned to trust only Isaac's words, choose to trust Kinard above the man who he blindly believed for 10 years, loving and growing under the fact Kinard loves him, wants him to be himself, to grow and heal, they both choose to trust each other, not to question their feelings or fear loosing that love again.
While Shihad is frustrating to watch, you can clearly see a man with too many scars, while he says some really deep things, to then show he knows he loved Yesing not understanding that it's love for he doesn't know what love actually is, his heart compass being his penis is funny at the first glance, but actually sad for that how he measure his love with, his dick, his lust, wanting Yesing but unconsciously stay on a push-pull situation where he reaches out to take a step back, every time, from lover behavior to a parental treatment, not wanting to hurt him or himself.
Yesing on other hand has his loyalty to Kinrard on high value, he keeps wanting Shahid to stop treating him like a child, him being a child abandoned to a stranger hands, ends up pulling Shahid close to push him away when he gets an inch too close, his constant "I'm not a child" exactly when Shahid is not treating him like one a constant poke on Shahid subconscious on another push-pull mental defense mechanism, where they both love but are too afraid to reach out or take when the other reaches for them.
Kinrad and Alvin choose constantly to trust each other, while Shahid and Yesing are stuck on the roundabout trauma, not trusting themselves and the other.
It's brilliant, heartwarming and frustrating, sad and sweet, I'm not, by all mean saying it's flawless, it's frustrating and annoying to read the second couple for their blindness because from outside the trauma is very obvious, when their fear and uncertainty of what love is makes it hard to trust they love, imagine being loved.
Couple 1: Unconditional Love
Couple 2: Unconditional Misunderstandings
Devon is drawn so beautifully I'd lick her shoes anytime if she desired.
Joking (or not) aside, Devon being a beautiful, powerful character and not being the annoying side character or the full-blown villan is so refreshing.