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"Inferiority Complex", "Jealousy/Envy"
Yes mc, I actually do understand and it's really valid for you to feel that way. Also, the fact that all ppl around him praise Jearim bc of his "talent" and hate mc is just saddd.
I actually experience this shit where they praise other ppl (my older sister) in front of you. I grew up with a beautiful sister (but she's actually not kind, she's a narcissist) but ppl love her, while I'm just an average looking person. I'm a latin honor in my college, I worked hard just for people to notice me. Yet, my older sister who's the most loved and not socially awkward person was the center of attention everytime... Everytime I walk past my neighborhood, they just smiled awkwardly at me and never talked to me.. Then with my sister, they smiled brightly and communicates with her. To them I feel like an air just passing by and it hurts.
When I had my first lover, we talk to each other and he's actually one of my neighbor... One day, we were just casually talking then he suddenly shifted the topic to my sister, asking me what is she doing or is she working etc. for me, it hurts my heart not just because he's my boyfriend and he should not ask about other women esp my sister. My heart hurts because he only saw me as an opportunity to know my sister well. I'm glad I never tolerated these actions. But it hurts so much how people praise my sister (yes, she liked being praised and she always says I'm ugly and she's beautiful. She likes ppl's praises) in front of my face and that feel like a heavy slap in my face. That's why I developed these inferiority complex and I became awkward and silent because I just accepted these treatment of ppl as a part of my life. Ik it's a drama lmao back to mc. I do understand him so much and the fact that he just quietly thinks about his frustrations just makes me sad bc that's how I also do it. Also, can Jaerim give him space? He literally saw mc and heard not to bother him... I hate these kind of ppl who're insensitive...