i love tsubaki arc, the build up was amazing; from him talking with anonymous, to him being in denial and anger, and finally to him losing his mind and him and tasuku both snapped. the emotions were intense, and i love the way the author provoked our emotions through the illustrations. when tsubaki started to trash talk the cat's clowder members we saw him in the ufo. ofc that's bcs he started to become a stranger to tasuku, become the tsubaki that tasuku didn't recognize. but for me, the ufo and the ship that appeared afterward were a representation of their feelings. ufo as something tasuku likes seems to depict his acceptance of his sexual identity. then it's invaded by tsubaki. then when tasuku finally confronts tsubaki and makes him realize, the ufo disappears and turns into a ship, signifying tsubaki finally accepting his sexuality. tasuku's ufo is tsubaki's ship.
i also like how the author illustrates the whirlwind of emotions that tsubaki feels when he finally comes to terms with his sexuality as a series of memories that comes flooding back to him. i feel like he realized things that matter to him, including the cat's clowder, and his time there. and one more thing, the toy organs falling off the table when tsubaki started talking about cat's clowder was also a top notch illustration, it exactly describes what tasuku (and i as the reader) felt when he said "don't you go there bcs you're one of them too?" it felt like my heart dropped and all the organs in my body were scattered.
ah i was rereading ch 60-160, i just remembered that zhengxi used to be sooo energetic compared to now, he exploded a lot just like mo. but the thing is that he's always been soft towards jian yi since day 1. and he tian used to stick to jian yi all the time before he met mo and made him his next target.
aaaand wow their stories at the beginning were really deep and heart wrenching, thank god we're past all of that now (kinda?) i mean, i wish old xian had continued to explore themes like jian yi's sexuality and acceptance, or zhengxi's feelings for jian yi and their overall relationship to get to this point in more detail. but yeah, for now im happy just watching them have fun in future setting. maybe we'll get to delve deeper into the story someday?
did you mean when he tian was away from mo in the future? im sorry but im not sure either, i don't think the reason for his disappearance has been told in the story, he just suddenly disappeared, but people speculated that it has something to do with his brother. and i can't tell you the exact ch either bcs i don't remember. sorry ㅠㅠ







look how far we've come. from mo hitting zhengxi on the head which then led to both of them being suspended from school, to now mo giving zhengxi a ride to work to save time. i love them so so much. these 4 idiots are all grown up now.