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As a reader, I want him to keep his barriers up and wait for the seme to beg and grovel like it's the end of the earth. But I also want him to open up to finally find his peace and not making the stupid decision of following the instruction if his brother just because he said that their relationship as siblings would be restored if he did. That would be more stupid and shit. I might be the one begging and groveling for this to end.